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2008-09-19T13:32:00.006+08:00

Im not gonna blog here anymore.
I HAVE A NEW BLOG.

So ASK ME PERSONALLY for the new blog.

2008-09-18T20:12:00.005+08:00

I went to school today & we had to fix the jib!

Eventho I dont have any idea how to fix it but lucky we were the 3rd one to go.

So I manage to observe & I help them half of it :D

After all that, was the girls talkkkkk!

Our oh-so-hot-topic was ; LESBIANS.

I just find it that the way we talk was so bimbo. HAHA

But anw, I din expect a straight girl to watch lesbians porn that turns her on!

HAHAHA you know who you are eh! Tsk tsk =p

WHO TOOK THIS? Because you have no idea how drunk I was, *looks up*

Talking back abt the memories in KL soccer trip.

You know sometimes when you talk about memories its fun.

& also heart-wrecking, memories will fade but they never die -.-

On a lighter note,

KEKA MADE ME WATCH THIS JAPANESE MOVIE..

& SURREPTITIOUSLY I CRIED EH.

Yesterday I watch JERITAN SEPI..

& I CRIED TOO!

But I will never ever watch sad movies w my friends!

So peace baby (",)

2008-09-17T18:33:00.007+08:00

Heres my lil hot nephew :DHAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DARLING, MUHAMMAD RYAN :D
I CANT WAIT FOR U TO GROW OLDER, CONFIRM HOT GILEEEEE!
GERAMMMMM K ! :DDDDD- xoxo.

Well heres the rest of the pictures.

Theres more but nvm, just check out on Adel's blog. ADELOGRAPHY.BLOGSPOT.COM click HERE will do.

I din go to school nor soccer nor im fasting!

Because Im still sick. -____________-

I am so bored, I think Im gonna stop w what I intend to do!

Today itself, I receive 8 msges from 8 different people.

Well currently, I dont really bother that much about having a gf.

I have move on life as single for nearly a year alrdy y cant I just continue right?

So if I dont really entertain some of you, that means I dont bother.

Peace.

Oh & I just remember, last year at this point of time..

I was really really stress w N level & my bestfriend.

I can still feel the pressure okay.

Coz it was a sad thing when she said, DONT TALK TO ME FOREVER.

& that she really mean what she said.

Now, everyone's telling me you're arrogant.

I say, 'like i care anymore?'. Tsk tsk.

On a random note,

I miss getting high, I miss getting drunk.

~~andthatnursinggirlsheissocute.~~

~~i cant deny i have fetish on arab girls, but mostly arab girls are STRAIGHT.~~

~~So dream onnnnnnnnn Mar.~~

(off track)

Should I cut my hair? I mean just layered?

& then highlight? Or dye?

Or maybe perm?(mummy die2 want me to perm)

Mum: Next week I give u money u go perm ur hair.

Ahhh I think I will just see how my cousin Has & Mimi dyed thier hair!

Because I wanna dye something different this year :D

2008-09-16T23:52:00.005+08:00

THERES MORE PICTURES. WILL BE UPLOADED TOMORROW.

@ skatepark

Ive been having photoshoot with Adelin Bte Osman, yesterday & today!
Yesterday was fun, coz its a group photoshoot & it was my first time.
I have fun w the guys, (new friends) & I get along w them pretty well :D

Today's photoshoot was only me w Adel.
Met mimi first & cousin thanks for accompanying me for e quick shopping.
Then headed to Botanical Garden, dont ask how we get there.
THANKS TO ME K ADEL, WE FINALLY REACH THERE. Haha.
Snap some pictures & we were talking to each other by SHOUTING.
That bitch! Everything force me to ask! She say..

Adel: U tanye org blkg bus NR8 ape?
Me: Eh u tanye lah! Tadi kalau tk tanye org we wont reach BG, so u see the point?We need to ask people!
Adel: Ah yelah u gi tanye lahhh!
Me: Eh u tanye lah! Asik i jek!
Adel: I malu la.
Me: Oh abeh i nih tk tau malu ah?
Adel: Memang muke u kan tak tau malu!

Sial kan. But end up neither of us ask the lady.
& the way adel talk is damn fastttt! That I need to take my time to catch up.
But now, I realize im talking like her! The speed kept increasing! Haha.

Headed to Starbucks, had FREEE drinks & headed home ((:
Bitch I enjoyed listening to your oh so damn funny stories!
Hahaha, send me the rest of the peeks soon okay bye!

2008-09-14T21:34:00.001+08:00

Why do all good things come to an end...

Lovers to friends. Friends to enemies. Enemies to nothing.
Sorry but I have to do it. Like I say, I dont do repeatings!
You've hurt me enough, its over.
Dont even think of being friends.

I can't take this

I won't take this

I can't do this

I Won't do it

I was just walking that day aimlessly...

2008-09-14T02:41:00.003+08:00

SHEILA! Jealous tak dengan eyebrow aku? HAHA!
My Mummy! :) Fitz, Mary, Has, Mimi (:

To that bustard, if you think we need dicks, then come & tell this whole people here okay? Come & confront us if you're not a pussy! Assholes.

I din take much pictures coz of my sick face so okay bye (:

Im down with flu + fever + cough :((

HAPPY 11MONTH TO ME ((:

Happy 6thmonth to Sam & Farah ((:

2008-09-12T23:55:00.006+08:00

Fitz (: Firstly, HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY UNCLE (soffi) :D

I was busy the whole day. I make Has laugh the whole day! HAHA!
Met up with Fitz, Has & Mimi and headed to Bugis for nothing. -______-
Then headed to Marina, bought uncle's present and had break fast at LJS. (standard). I had trouble with the chicken! Then fitz help me with it then I was so shy! HAHA. Da dua kali eh a girl have to help me with the chicken! =p Bought for Fitz m&m & she finally gave me KINDER BUENO & a random sketch of err..ermm BELO faces with my name & the word belo, anyonyoi that reflects me? HAHAHA, its random but its cute & girl you're the first one to give me random sketches. Haha I like it tho :D *looks down*Headed to esp rooftop to celebrate uncle bday, while waiting for her to reach we camwhored. After a mean while, someone just spoiled my mood & I dont bother to snap any nice pictures. Incase if you din realise or dont know, I din bother to talk to you at all. Because I hate being friends again with those people who has hurt me. Peace. I went off early without saying goodbye to some of them. Im down with flu/coughing & I feel like dying. Accompany fitz & headed home. I will update the pictures soon after I receive it frm Has ;)

Hey girl, I was really happy that you can make it today (: I was happy to receive the random sketches (: I was happy for the kinder bueno :p I was happy to see you today :) - one day i will teach u how to spray laughing gas at the leg k! HAHAHA da sah slenge =p

(off track)

I dont betray people who loves me, ESPECIALLY GIRLS. But I cant take it if you're lying about love. & of coz lying about me. One moment you said it all the next moment I knew you hate me? What is it that you're not happy with? You cant force in love baby, you cant just make a decision 'alright, today im gonna love her'. No, not that way. Its like taking a step at a time. I tried very hard not to make people dislike me(excluded guys), but for your case I dont bother. Seriously, because I know im telling the truth & I have all the proofs with me. We are only just friends & what an image that you have just shown me, her, them & us is not a good one. You're a failure. Goodbye, sayonara till we'll meet again. I hope, NOT!

2008-09-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

I nearly post an entry which full of vulgarities & words that actually reflect about how a terrible person I am. But think again I will receive the bad comments from people for sure. So on the other hand also, FITZ ROCKS MY SOCKS!(HAHA!) I was feeling all frustrated but once she went online I dont know why I kept smiling while chatting with her, & so she told me to erase everything and wrote abt her 'fitz rocks my socks' thingy. Haha. & im still waiting for my Kider Bueno my dear ;) Hehehehehe. *kening naik naik*

To be honest I hate this feeling of being hot tempered during period because I will get the innocent people involve too. & I hate shouting at people. But what the fuck, just bear with it every month. And Yana, sorry I make you cry :(

(out of topic)

I believe you dont want people to know the REAL you?

So before the public knows please change yourself.

Its rather a macabre story.

How silly can you be when you know the 3 of us are close friends.

????

2008-09-10T21:17:00.002+08:00

I told you, never talk to me when im angry but you refuse right so serves you right people!
_

Eh sweet kan sweet eh, nb jealous k I.

random..

Mum: tau tak mcm mane nak pakai iron steamer baru tuh?
Mar: Ahh okay.
Mum: eh slenge org tanye yg ckp ok apasal? (laugh her ass out)

Another conversation..

Haryani: Kau puase tak?
Mar: Eh aku lapar ah bile seh aku nak mkn?
Haryani: Kau tak puase pe?
Mar: Eh kau tau tadi aku naik bus mcm budak bodoh seh.
Haryani: OI! AKU TANYE KAU LAIN KAU JWB LAIN!
Mar: Nanti aku call kau balik bye (slumber voice).

Have my friends ever think why am I so retarded? I guess.

Okay put that aside, I wanna say out something here.

Ive decided to stick to one with ONE particular girl only. I may not know whose the right girl for me now. But whoever she is, I hope you will be just the right one for me. Who will be my FIRST & perhaps LAST girlfriend. I believe in long term relationships only if the other party believes in it too. I wanna fall in love again, pretty soon I guess. & I wonder who will be the girl that Ive been waiting for this nearly 11months ;) Very much exciting I guess. Heeeeee!

Anyway, on the other hand. Thanks MIMI for accompanying me just now :D & help me to carry those stuffssss! I love you cousin (:

2008-09-09T22:40:00.005+08:00

I manage to come to school on time today BUT lesson start at 8.45 when it suppose to start at 8am. & I swear I seriously cannot take it the sleepyness! Hahhhh. So I slept for 2hrs eh. Then I heard Mr Graham was talking about Israel...

Me: Cher you go Israel?

Mr Graham: No Mardhiah, you go back to sleep!

Haha selenge. Then Soffi called, had polite today at ITE Tamp. So we headed there, before that went to the library first. I was really hungry eh that time, & Soffi was just beside me. & okay the people around me heard my stomach growling! ITS DAMN LOUD EH! They cant stop laughing seriously. HAHAHA siak. Headed to ITE tamp, & it was just a meeting. Waste my precious time only eh! We played some random games at Safra & headed to Pasir ris to break fast. Window shopping a lil & cab home. Ive been taking cab back home since last 2 weeks till today eh. Waste money jek tapi tetap naik jugak. Pfffftttt. K bye.

I miss secret lover badly, eh I wonder when i will meet you eh. Taik u!

2008-09-09T21:37:00.004+08:00

Tagged by Ateen.

1. Where would you go if someone sponsors you an air ticket ?
- Paris (mcm step kaye)

2. What's your favourite thing to do ?
- CAMWHORE & SLEEP :D

3. Do you think money can buy happiness ?
- No uh, duhhh.

4.If you were given a chance to receive something, what would it be ?
- 10 million dollars.

5 Things you can't live without ;
- Family
- Friends
- My SAMSUNG K5
- Money
- Girls

6. What are you afraid to lose ?;
- My parents & friends.

7. If you win $1 million dollars, what would you do ?;
- SHOPPING, I wanna make my own wardrobe filled with everything la. OWN STUDIO! (best sia) Travel around the world. I think i will be partying everynight, everynight different girls eh(haha siak).

8. What do you dream of doing in the future ?;
- Photographer? Actually I wanna be armygirl, EH SERIOUS. Haha.

9. List down 3 good points about the person who gave you this survey:;
- Ateen is cute, friendly & sweet ((:

10. What makes you happy ?;
MONEY! Friends of coz, & maybe someone special (: & having that girl as my secret lover :)

11. What type of person do you hate the most ?;
- POSER! Too egoistic! & arrogant! Heartbreaker!

12. If you have a super power what would it be ?;
- To make four be mine. Eh i think its too much information eh. HAHA

13. Would you go for happiness or money ?;
- BOTH.

14. Who do you think is the most important people in your life ?;
My family & friends.

15. If you have a boyfriend, would you die for him ?;
-NO!

16. Who's the last person who hugged you ?;
- Sial ah I cannot remember.

17. What is the one thing you want to do badly right now ?;
- Beat up someone.

18. Who are you close to ?;
Lala, my soccermates, few of my friends. Honestly, Im not close to my family.

19. Are you courageous enough to tell the person that you like him ?;
- You mean HER. Yes.

20. If you could do one thing all over again what would it be ?;
- That I will never lose that first girl I love, really. Because she is the sweetest thing ever. Ahh fuck I just said it again -.-

21. 7 things that scare you:;
- CATS! (fucking nb cb cats)
- Karma
- Pretty girls
- Being hurt by some special people -.-
- If I hurt any girls.
- Walking alone!
- Crowds, I scared I will get lost.

22. 7 things that you like/love the most:;
- Family
- Friends(bff, soccermates & all)
- My secret lover(baik kan i letak sal u! hah!)
- My flings/my girls.
- Get drunk & high
- Being pampered
- Enjoy life to the fullest

23. 7 important things in my room:;
- Mirror
- My plain wall (for taking picture -.-)
- My COMB!
- Powder
- Wardrobe
- Laptop
- My MICKEY MOUSE bed.

24.7 people to do this questionnaire :;
Anyone la k bye.

2008-09-08T23:37:00.005+08:00

First & foremost HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY to my bff :D

I hope you have fun today okay bff ;) Well heres a little message for you-

I remember when we first became friends & how wonderful it felt as our friendship(i nearly type friendster) deepened over time. We both discovered that we could tell each other anything & know we would find compassion & acceptance. Im grateful for each time you were there when I needed someone, & I was there when you needed someone. To be frank after a lil misunderstanding in my life I thought I would never want a bestfriend ever again because I thought I dont need anyone in my life but until I met you May this year(cheh mcm matair pulak, HAHAHAHAHA) , & eventho it was only a short period of time but hey look at us now. Look how close we are till we was labelled as BFF's. You really know my bad & good side and I know yours in just like 5months? So far we have not been going thru ups & downs. You are a bitch sometimes, I can be even bitchier then you. Maybe some part, some part that we hate each other. But most of the part I love you Bff(sweet eh) HAHA!. But hey, I hope this time round our friendship wont shrink again like the past, lets understand each other more(we already are) but abit more. Nevermind, we have all the time to talk to bitch to be friends with who to featured who & not to featured who( I guess u know what I mean). *kening naik naik* Anw, I wish you good luck in your future endeavours that includes your love life. YOU MUST WISH ME THAT TOO ON 14DEC K. Hahaha. & please eh next time laugh along with me, or else people will think I crazy. & Lala, I know that sometimes I may be slow, but please bear with it. HAHAHA! Okay bff I hope our friendship(again wanna type friendster) will grow stronger each day okay, even if I dont see you, I dont really spend time with you, I dont go soccer trainings with you, I dont anything with you, you must know that I will always regard you as my bff. I will be there for you anytime you need me okay? All hail LALA! HAHAHA k merepek. K bye! :

I woke up late today so that says Im late for school AGAIN. Anw, breaktime together with the PVA girls. Sat with Izah jek non-stop laughing hits eh! Izah you think I what? Laughing gas, make you laugh jek? Hahaha. Then I think I too hungy I go breakfast together with Farlini & Farah. Haha! Setan aku da start. Waited for Has after school & headed to Sengkang to meet Fyy.

Breakfast(step breakfast jek aku) at Swensen! I had Chicken Mushroom sphagetti + Fries + Chocolate Crunch Ice cream. Hahhhhhhh! My stomach was bloated looks like a 3months old pregnant lady. I told them, anytime eh my skirt button can just pop off. BUT NO of coz. Headed to hougang to meet Fyy's friends. & err headed home. The bus was fucking slow eh, I fed up I alight & hail a cab :) Anw, it was nice meeting you Fyy for the first time ;) & HAS THANKS FOR THE TREAT SO MUCHHHH! I MUST TREAT YOU ONE DAY TOO OKAY BABY HAS? HAHA.

On the other hand, which people have been talking to me about. GO JOIN MODEL AGENCY. You all crazy uh, I still young. & anyway Ive never think of joining the model agency. But this guy, Dagmar has been telling me to join. Thing is I SHY K SEE PRETTY GIRLS THERE. K shut up.

I reach home just now & you know whatttt? Omg omg omg, my mother give me $$$ to go shopping! Ya allah pengsan tengok duit banyak2 kat bilik. (feeling2 millionaire) HAHAHAHAHA. Im starting to talk crap right. DA LA BYE!

My fantasy girl, I think I like you (:

2008-09-05T23:59:00.006+08:00

Ive been feeling damn frustrated lately, I think period's coming. So this girl chatted with me at msn, I tried to be nice since Ive been busy lately. But she was fucking keret towards me! Sial. I cannot take it eh I shout at her. Eh aku tak mati eh kehilangan org macam kau! Infact shes not even my friend, she just add me at msn recently. Hahhhh wtf ! Like I care if you're tryna impress me. Some girls like you go fuck yourself! (& someone was scared to chat w me just cause I was damn angry, haha kental)

Anw, I spend the day with the usual people.
THANKS FOR THE TREAT HAS & HAZY! :D I love you cousins :D
Breakfast at Ayu's place, wanted to meet Lala but went home late.
One more day to go BFF! :D
ps; tomorrow someone wanna treat me Swensen, woooo *kening naik naik*

Just so you know, I am very choosy when choosing girls as my gf.
Thats why until now I dont have a gf -.-
& my type of girl...

I want long hair girls with sharp nose, very pretty but have nice heart. & should't be some posers just because of the sake of being a lesbian, & her person must be stick to one. & she must appreciate my love towards her, and i want my gf kan who i can click with, whom i will not be shy with. & not sensitive at all! & who willings to do anything for me & will still love me in the morning. & she will stick with me thru whatever and never let me go. Whose willing to make sacrifices. Eventho shes busy, she will take 5min of her time just to say I love you ;) Because thats what I will do to my gf when I have one. And that girl MUST be a long hair girl, & she should't be younger then me because younger girls are so not matured enough eventho THEY MAY LOOK LIKE ONE, they tend to give stupid fucking reasons of being a lesbian but if you think you are not like that then try to win my heart ;) So that says I go for PL's only, not andros, not butch, not watsoever. So okay Im done here, thank you.

Eh ya allah, ape nih bulan puase sal lesbian2! Shoosh! Im suppose to be straight! HAHAHA.

2008-09-04T19:07:00.007+08:00

Mary & Izah baby Tangan Fina sibuk -.-"

Semua sibuk ikut I pegang tangan. Haha!

The red carpet.

Mr Boi

Hot babes :)

Yesterday was the Gala Premiere at Vivo City.

Meet up with Izah & Tini first.

We thought we was late so from Bedok took a cab to VC.

But in the end the movie started at 9.30pm.

The red carpet thingy2 started at 8.30pm.

We reach there 7pm.

Sakit hati eh.

BUTTT! We spend plenty of time taking pictures.

305 pictures were taken!

& yeah I know theres plenty of Izah's picture with me.

Thats coz Izah kan date I semalam. *bimbo*

Haha.

We break fast at 8.30pm k.

Then went back to the theathre to catch the movie THE DAYS.

I was all excited when I saw my face!

& my name under the credits! First time eh!

Thats why was happy as a lark. HAHA.

Everything ended around 11.45pm.

& Dayana's dad send us home, baik kan!

Thanks alot Pakcik Yahya. haha (;

Accompany Izah to wait for her bf came & I went to sleep at 2am.

Penat k.

Today school, we did nothing much.

Start at 12.30pm ended at 3pm. Pffftttt.

& I scolded Fina for no reason.

TWICE PULAK TUH! Sorry finaaa! haha.

Like Lin said 'nari mar tk sedar diri'.

Met Yaya & decided to wait for has.

But I was way too sleepy.

SO HAS TOMORROW DIE DIE YOU HAVE TO TREAT ME!

Haha peace yaw :D

Anw you GIRLS have heard about,

girls maybe need to go NS?

Cool eh, I want sia!

Really I want :D

2008-09-01T21:45:00.002+08:00

Lala's PhotographyAdel step cute, Mary step hot. HAHA!

Quoted by Lala.The pictures are done!

Cousins are all here to breakfast at my place.

Anw, today is the first day of fasting month.

Yes la im fasting & also I did pray too!

Mar kan good girl *kening naik naik*

Remember about the Mediacorp shooting Im suppose to go?

Know why I din go? Here goes the story.

My uncle, Rafi Khan, wanted to call me.

His crew were shooting on some ghost story movie.

That night he wanted to call me to ask me to come down.

But everytime when he wants to dial my number,

he felt something stop him. He says he can sense it.

Sekali 2 pompuan kene sampok!

They really saw the real ghost, & fhew lucky I din go.

19 days to school holidays!

HAHA must countdown!

14 dec coming eh.

haha!

2008-08-31T23:28:00.018+08:00

More pictures coming up !

I woke up early in the morning just to watch Lala play soccer.

I met Adeline Bte Osman first.

Like as usual, first time meeting NERVOUS!

But after awhile, omg la that Adel is so a bitch.

Wanna know why?

She just gave me a push & I fell off from my chair.

But, my reaction was nothing & slow. Anyonyoi kan.

My eyes really had fun today!

I was eye contacting with this GREEN girl.

& the guys = jerks + morons

whose just infront of me thought I was looking at them!

Sial ahhh, kalau handsome tkper siak!

Nih matrep! I feel like smacking thier fucking kental faces siak.

Eeeeehhhhh! Disgusting matreps. Omg!

Pfffftttttt!

Headed to Harbourfront had dinner.

We had a talk about this girls stuffs.

& I actually told Iffa about this girl which bring me to tears.

I have never cried infront of my friends okay!

& also ive never cried for a girl before -.-"

Lala was hoping me to cry but I manage to control!

Nyahaaaa. But yes it was very sad la kan.

For a moment I lost my mood to take pictures.

But after awhile, MARY TAK AMIK GAMBAR?

IMPOSSIBLE K IMPOSSIBLE.

Had Starbucks & headed home.

YOU GIRLS KNOW WHAT?

I MISS MY CASPER SHOW :(

I HOPE IT WILL REPEAT AGAIN ON TV!

PFFFTTTT.

I miss #4

Get well soon okay darling ;)

Taik u. HAHA.

Cut it short, I went to NUS to watch my "family" soccer match.

We were effing starving so had a lil shopping at cheers!

REEYA, she really eat alot. Hahhhhhh!

Anw, during the game had a great laugh with the girls :D

HAHA, anyonyoi smuanye.

Then Reeya, Yaya papaya went off.

Later at night.

Headed to Marina. Met up with Fina & friends ;)

I din notice Maira join us! Till I look at her properly!

Haha anyonyoi kan! Anw it was nice having walk the talk with u.

& thanks for accompanying me darling ;)

I went over to Esplanade.

I was talking so damn fast on the phone with Aisyah.

When I thought its her but then, I was talking to Farah actually.

Paiseh sekejab ah. HAHA.

Went off home with the 2 girls.

& yesterday was totally fun cause I meet & spend time with all kinds of girls. Heeeeeeeee. K bye.

xoxo

2008-08-29T20:57:00.006+08:00

I dont know why my memory has been very bad lately.

Or I should say from bad to worst? I kept forgetting things in just a second.

Like really bad I tell you. & also Ive been super extra slenge this days.

We played this game called MACDONALD.

It was suppose to be apple pie when I shouted out loud PINEAPPLE,

with full of confidence! Everyone heard me & we cant stop laughing our ass out.

& then Abg and I wanna buy ice cream,

instead of saying COOKIES & CREAM, i said it

Mar; Uncle I want cream chip.

Uncle; what?

Mar; cream chip la! eh no, cookies cream!

Uncle; huh?

Mar; cookies cream la! EH NO NO! ABG WHAT U WANT?

Abg u heard it eh, even the 2 girls.

& we actually cant stop laughing. haha!

Nervous la bobal dgn apek ice cream!

Ive made a new friend, Adel.

Shes fucking lovely I tell you.

& she can really tolarate with my nonsence.

Ive been all smiling & laughing msging with her. HAHA!

I shall see you on Sun Adel baby, hopefully. Teehee ;)

Anw, I wish my dream never end today.

I was happily sleeping & you know,

ALL THE GIRLS WHOM I HAVE A CRUSH ON,

was actually in my dream. omgggg! *kening naik naik*

& thats why I dont want it to end. hehehe.

I din go to school, but I went to Springfield Sec.

Teachers day mahhhhh. My juniors was really happy to see me,

& I was happy to see you girls too. ANYONYOI smuanye.

Still I love my Part'bs no matter what k girls ;)

& lil junior dont be sad cause Im not your instructor anymore,

I will be happy if I can still be your Staff Mardhiah till you girls are sec4.

But thats not possible, understand that.

Endure for 2 more years okay?

I love you girls ;)

On the other hand, I met Khairina, Nadirah & Syuhairah too.

I miss them, ye ye aku miss dorg. Abeh asl?

Afterall, they use to be my bestfriend kan.

If I dont miss them, I am a person who dont have feelings at all :/

If I can turn back time I sure will,

& not did all those silly mistakes & went to the right pathway.

Pffffttttt, headed to have lunch w the guys & cab home.

Vivo.

Over at my place.

Late nights at clarkequay.

Late nights at Changi :/
Self shoot for fun at our secret place. Haha kental.
& again.
I know some people DO read my blog, but wth.

& the motive of those pictures up there is,

I miss having my so called another half :/

So syu jangan feeling2 aku miss kau, =p

Remember those times when we have overnights at my place?

We have photoshoots?

We would wear the same outfit everytime?

(which now when i look back i find it stupid) haha.

When we use to fight & I will feel all sad about it.

When we use to have each other by our side.

When you will pamper me coz im the younger one.

When I have you shoulder to cry on.

When we use to be twin sisters :/

I know this things wont be probably be happening again.

But hey, theres no harm of missing it right?

Well infact, I miss those days with the 3 of u.

Esp khairina, my very first bestfriend :D

Nadirah, both of us da gemuk, but we have nice breast!

HAHAHAHAHAHA mampos.

Imy :/

xoxo

mary ;)

2008-08-25T23:57:00.006+08:00

I know the number of Has pictures is increasing in my blog.

Because we have been camwhoring la idiot.

The day started out happily but ended sadly.

I shall stop & stare.

Lets make you be the one who search for me.

I had enough. Sometimes I regret, I do.

I wanna be who I really am use to be.

I'm tired of rumors starting

I'm sick of being followed

I'm tired of people lying

Saying what they want about me

Why can't they back up off me

Why can't they let me live

I'm gonna do it my way

Take this for just what it is

I just need time to free my mind

When they ask me why?

What should I answer to them?

I dont even have the answers with me.

Will you stop listening to that motherfucker sweet talkings?

Im seriously gonna stop everything.

Not because of you but because of me.

Im just too kind when it comes to love,

that you really take advantage of it right?

Im too kind to just give away my love like that eh?

Just a lil more patience, & you will know my true colours

2008-08-24T23:57:00.011+08:00

Pictures editted by my dear Fina (:

Thanks darling.

#2 She say, I have a cute sharp nose (:

She say, I have lovely eyes (:

She say, I have sexy lips (:

She say, jangan macam paham (:

She say, forever mate u steam (:

& each of the caption was said by 5 girls (:

I love em' girls.

Ahh as per normal I camwhored at 11pm ya know!

Ahhh shit! I forgot to take the picture of the day!

Today I did nothing much.

Movie marathon only.

So okay bye.

xoxo

(",)

2008-08-23T23:43:00.004+08:00

Akmal...

the ex boyfriend -.-"

Shes my secondary sch bestfriend -.-" Thier 2 years 5months anniversary today (: SWEET COUPLES KAN! hahaha!Haha satu2 maintain ah sia.Chehhhhh macam paham!
See that guy in green shorts, my another ex bf! HAHA. When I took out the camera, see what they did. I went to Sentosa with the guys & girls. It was raining heavily! At first I really took care of my hair first but after awhile it seems like the raining was like never ending, I gave up. So we snap a lil bit here & there. Played games with the stupid 4 feet again! Lucky this time round Im not the victim! HAHA. And its like finally I met Nadhirah, Ive not seen her for nearly 9months already. Pffftttt. Nothing interesting -.-" I forgotten about the promise we make last time but I break that promise, but oh well I dont even care anymore since you dont too. So anyway Yana's friends were there too, & hello hello. One of the girl who kept smiling at me is so cute. -.-" Oh well then later at night...
So who saw this little girl again? Take note: we are just friends (:
Fanatic candyfloss!
Wati say: Eh amik gambar muke fierce. Now just look at her face. Haha.
HASSSS!
She is only 14 years old people, but just look at the height. -.-"
Soffi mate maintain k. Butch, PL, Andro :D
I went over to Marina to meet the girls. & headed to esp to catch the fireworks. I actually cant recall back the exact thing we did, but I know we camwhore every single minute before the fireworks. & the fireworks was awesome, but I get a lil frighten when it seems like its getting closer. HAHA kental. Saw alot of familiar faces, like derhh. That catwomen, alahai hot nye. Headed to funan to have dinner & since I was so worried about the last train I tend to walk first & leave the rest behind! HAHA, sorry eh. K peace.

Sentosa + Fireworks = Awesome baby!
But surprisingly kan, I din look at girls today.
Well besides catwomen. I envy her alot.
She is so pretty. & I adore gorgeous girls so much ;)

2008-08-22T21:13:00.016+08:00

PICTURES ARE SPECIALLY FOR ADEL! :D I told ya the curls cannot be seen that clearly thanks to someone ah eh! -.-" But thanks to FATIN DAYANA BYE YAHYA for doing my hair :D

Mind those steamy eyes! haha. Mira & Mar. Yahh thats my sister -.-"

Like sister like sister. Haha get it?

I told her to do that. HAHH. I think I wanna go for perming, PERMANENT.
Im sick & tired of straight hairs.
So how? Perm or reborn?
Come on! Tag me the answers!
_
& to my dear qimm, Im so sorry I cant go out with you today. I din know soccer end late today. Omg I am so sorry okayy. Dont be dissapointed nor sad alright? You know you can just call me anytime if you need someone to talk too babe. I am truly sorry qimmm :(
_
Anw, after all that later at night had dinner with has.
We really conquer the whole mac dont we?
HELLO HELLO! FUYO FUYO! HIAK ERMM!
Haha, we was teasing this girl working at mac.
Shes quite gorgeous. & it took us that long to get up.
Eye contacts, body languages. & off to swensen.
We were talking crap at interchange, literally crap.
& when we saw our bus, our reaction was fucking hell funny!
Has: EH BUS KITE!
Mar:EH BUS KITE! LARI LARI!
Hahaha! First time lari kat interchange.
Whoever saw me eh ahh shut up la k.
_
On a lighter note, I cant wait for tomorrow.
The guys now is at my voideck.
They had this gathering just to plan for tomorrow.
Daytime with them, nightime with the soccermates!
At least I can balance my time with different kind of friends :D

LAST BUT NOT LEAST.

I HOPE THE GOVERNMENT WILL FINALLY DECIDE THAT..

NO CATS ALLOWED AT VOIDECKS!

THANKS TO THE NEIGHBOUR HERE WHO JUST RELEASE ALL HER CAT PETS! ALL OF IT IS LOITERING AT MY VOIDECK! WHICH IS KILLING ME! & I NEARLY GET A HEART ATTACK JUST NOW, BECAUSE I WAS WALKING HAPPILY & THERE GOES 3 CATS DASHING INFRONT OF ME! OMFG I SWEAR I SHOUT OUT LOUD & I RAN WORST THEN A FAT KID. EEEHHHH OR MAYBE PERHAPS ALL CATS SHOULD BE DEAD? MAYBE CATS SHOULD HAVE DOOMS DAY TOO! & I WILL BE ONE OF THEM HAPPILY KILLING THE CATS! STUPID FUCKING CATS. GO & DIE BODOH. NO OFFENCE TO CATS LOVERS. Muahahaha!

I miss #four:(

2008-08-21T09:08:00.008+08:00

Time check ; 9:04am

My class starts at 12.30pm.

The reason y I woke up so early cause yesterday I went to bed at 6pm!

6pm all the way to 9am Ive slept like a pig -.-

I woke up with 9 missed calls & 11 received msges.

Like I mention my sleep is more important then anything else.

If you had only told me how you really felt

I could not have put my feelings into someone else

But I was busy thinking where I was supposed to be

And I want this to be over

Literally over girl

2008-08-19T21:05:00.009+08:00

Ahh nerd wear specs. -.-"
I have alot to talk today. So get ready for the the long post. Alright lets start with school earlier. I was 30mins late, -.-" I purposely turn off my alarm but I remember I have to go to school for attendance so yah. During break time we kept going to the booth to see girls. & eventually ALL MY GIRLS CLASSMATE(the main people) fall for this fucking hot butch! I have to admit that first time I like butch. Omg this butch she is so fucking hotttt! I guess my girls agree with me too & thats why we quickly get done with our trailer assignment & quickly ran to the stadium to see her run BUT we was too late! Tskkkkkkk! & she went off ready. But but! I went to smoke with her & also I get to hug herrrr! Girls jealous jealous? Hahhh you better be! Hehe. NLE lecture, we watch SEPET movie. & oh you guys should watch its really funny & sad. I wanted to sleep but the movie wake me up so yes I was awake for 2hours. Headed home after that & I swear everything tini talk to me I just shut up & din reply her. I think she get pissed off & keep quiet. HAHA! Sorry ah penat sangat ah nak bobal. Lets look at the brighter side, I have a crush on 3 girls today :D Oh did I mention that 2 cutie girls at school smiled at me? They know me but I dont know them. Haha cute cute :)

I dont know why Ive been so sleepy this days. I dont know why Ive been so quiet this days. Im even too tired to laugh or talk. Like how I did to tini, so that explains how lazy I am to open my small tiny mouth. I just had my dinner & I tell you I was even lazy to munch the food so I threw it away. I dont know what kind of emotion/expression Im going through. Very much confuse indeed. I cant let it out everything here because I know some people whom I dont expect read my blog too -.-"

On the other hand, I know I flirt alot. All I could talk about is girls. Yeah so? Have I ever hurt the girls whom I flirt around with? Have I? No I dont unless the girl makes me too. I want a girlfriend, yes true but I gotta fling around to find the right one true? Girls are bitchy, girls flirt alot! Dont tell me you dont, you are a girl yourself. You should understand the situation im going through now cause we have this thing in common that we are girls. Maybe I guess im too kind wen it comes to love that some bitches take advantage of it. Because the truth is I cant really be harsh to girls, I am so soft hearted when it comes to 'em. You can personally ask my bff Lala if you dont believe me. Just so you know, I wont die if I dont have a girlfriend k cause Ive survive for 10months of being single already, & its been the longest time already so I dont have any difficulties to go on with life alone because I have awesome friends around me. You make me think too much that make me felt guilty of what Im doing now, flirting with some girls whom Im not suppose to, that get me speechless & being quiet and kept thinking of what you have said.

But let me remind you, there is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved. Cause love is like a river it will cut a new path whenever it meets an obstacle. Therefore I will not rewind back those great times I had with some girls, once I said it i dont wanna be with you anymore I really mean it cause I DONT DO REPEATING GIRLS. Once you hurt me thats it, its over between you and me. Even if I say I miss you but no matter what deep inside me I still hate you. Some people still dont understand me so dont pretend & talk to me that you know me very well. Im tired of this thing, I need a break, like I use to have last time, go overseas. Ive not talk about this to anyone & I dont wish too. So dont ask. But if you ask thanks for your concern. Till then I shall go my own way..

& I dont even have any idea why I am talking about this? pfffttt.

2008-08-18T22:39:00.002+08:00

Happy 18th birthday dearest girl. I dont have a proper picture so this will do. Yeah I do still keep it. -.-" Anw, I hope you enjoyed your day sweetest thing. Tc, Lovesss ;) Suke sangat kan rainbow.
Read what yati comment about the picture below.

IcY pOpSiClEs: bored.. says:
is that syahmi?hahah..cute
Mary says:
ak ahhh
Mary says:
haha yeahh
IcY pOpSiClEs: bored.. says:
kaw pon cute!
IcY pOpSiClEs: bored.. says:
ehh alamak!
IcY pOpSiClEs: bored.. says:
comp virus!
IcY pOpSiClEs: bored.. says:
tertype nihh
Mary says:
HAHAHAHA

Dan hug me! & I cannot stop laughing! HAHAHAHAHA! 4c you know i know public dont know.

Sarsi promoter per. Syahmi cam bapok kan. HAHAHAHA!Hehhh. Lesson start at 9am & end at 11.30am. I swear I was so sleepy but accompanied them to eat at Cafe 1 & I cab back home. & I sleep like a pig. Furthermore theres only me in the house the whole day so it was damn peaceful. Hahhhh *insert relieve face here*

Once I woke up receive a call from Abg (Ace) & Anwar. Anwar ask me to come down to hang out with the guys so I agree since I was damn bored. Late nights with them was awesome as always. Many things been plan, talk etc. I felt save with them around me, I dont know why. Maybe because they are the only guys I trust & they love me as much as I love them? Well maybe yes. Girls dont worry, they are my classmates ONLY & infact Im not interested in guys so no need to worry alright? Infact I think my classmates should be the one who has to worry about thier girlfriends. HAHAHAHA okay Im kidding.

Anw, I hope my mum come back home soon. Tskkkkk! Unexpected things always happen. Hais.

2008-08-17T20:11:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY SHEILA! May all your wishes come true & have a great day today alright babe? I love you babe ;) Alright tc.
Qimmy qimmy I love you babe ;)So yeah I had soccer today at Singapore American School. Of all matches we only won 1 game, as I was expected. But who cares I go there to meet Lala & Mary & Caah & the rest. And also to let my eyes enjoy. & I swear today my eyes really enjoying every view it saw. Left right front behind, EVERYWHERE! Woodlands, the girls are not bad eh eh eh! K da gatal. Diam. Met alotta familiar faces. -.-" But I din met Adel tho. ADEL! I was looking forward to meet you today since you say you are coming & you owe me one big tight hug remember?!

After the game as usual had dinner at causeway & headed home. I was glad that I finally meet Lala & talk crap with her! Talk about girls, what else? & I met Mary! I miss her so much. I am so sleepy for no reason why. Yesterday I slept at 10pm. & sorry this few days Ive been ignoring calls/msges. I am so fucking lazy to text anyone till all of them gave up on me & thats why my handphone has been dead this few days. I only text a few people whom I wish too. Hehhhh.

I like the way you look at me. I like the way you smile at me. I like the way you react very shy when you saw me. I like the way how we eye contacts. I like passing msges to your friend. I like flirting with you *kening naik naik* & I think I like you alot, #four ;) But I know this thing between us is only 'you know i know public dont know' thing. & therefore you are my only secret love ;)

Tag Replies.

Mimi; ehh macam tak tau plak! haha!

Iffa; no im notttt! your virgo baby is! *winks

ray; hmmm. yah i tell u alot, alah either one la ;)

Yana; WAH yana! how u know I got twin? i got alot ah infact! HAHA

ATEEN; yeahh. & u too uh? hahhh. alright see u soon too babe ;)

...; you mean the previous song? its Red Light. & yahh dawn very pretty.

kin; which ray u talking about? got 2 you know :)

#9; LALA LALA LALA!

aisyah; yeah its np babe, anytime okay. i read it already. haha yeahh those 2 fucking annoying mat kentals. irritating man! aisyah bobal cam makcik2! hahaha. tangan tuhh maintain k my dear ;)

qim; im not late my dear :D

irah; da update lah!

22; sape pulak 22 eh? im not dating anyone now 22. im single so what can you expect, kiri kanan pompuan? unless i have a gf then u can say such things ah. & how would u knw if i fling ard with those girls? skali my friends also you say i fling ard. -.-

2008-08-14T22:28:00.011+08:00

Dawn gorgeous (:
Ah TMTM mosh. My Family :) Except bernice is my girlfriend. HAHA! Alright im still waiting for more pictures from Mag. Anw, we were qualify for the finals but the match againts ITE West team 1 we lost, 2-0! Grrrr. But overall we won 2nd. Better then floorball right? YES! Ohh well, after the match headed to have dinner & we slack at open plaza.

After dinner things started to get boring cause everyone is so sleepy. We celebrated Elmo's 18th birthday! Happy birthday darling ;) & after that I did some stupid stuffs. We intend to take laughing gas buttt everyone is lazy to buy it. So I on some songs & started dancing and doing the usual stuffs when Im high la kannn. But actually no uh I was not high. I play pretend! Haaaaa. Okay girls wateva happen yesterday stays there okay. Like I say you can only see me like that once in a blue moon only! HAHA k fake.

HAPPY 10TH MONTH TO ME :D Now I want a girlfriend, 10months single already k. Wah lauuuu! -.-" Da break record nih paling lame single. Muahahahaha. K da bye!

ps; thanks for the kiss love ;)

2008-08-13T20:17:00.005+08:00

I swear this is candid!
I was too tired due to yesterday that I ended up waking late. I really wanna go school today but Im too tired. Gahhh. Okay so I rest awhile, & I study OKAY! After that I camwhore. Haha. & the reason why Lala's pic up there is because, we did something in common. CAMWHORE! Yeahhh. & also cause I miss her so fucking much! I miss Mary too alotttttt! I cant wait on 17 to see you girls ;)

& to that guy, why do you need to get so paranoid when you know about me? What did you say last time when we were dating? What is it? No matter how busy we are you still love me right. Yahh so much of saying that but we're falling apart & I go on with my life without you by my side. So why are you blaming me about everything? I did text you din i? I did call you to come down for my school projects to help out this n that din i? So whats the fuss about? Who are to be blame here? Whatever it is, I dont care anymore. Cause every guy is the same. -.-" NO WAY im not turning straight just like that. Prove to me that you are worth it, if you are then wait for me for 7 more years okay! Ha ha.

2008-08-11T22:34:00.014+08:00

Every picture like this, the most thing I like is MY NOSE! haha.
Our nose nice right! I know.

Shes trying to seduce me -_-"

BUROK! Haha.

Nidah's 17, Mary's 16. I finally had an outing with Nidah today. We started planning to meet at 3.30 but both were late and reach 4.30 instead! Girls shall be girls right girls? HAHA. Okay anw, we headed to shaw house to catch the movie P2! We were right on time. I WANTED NACHOS BADLY BUT WAS NOT AVAILABLE. & Nidah said 'die tau u da gemuk tu psl not available'. Jahat kan! Humpf!

It was a horror movie! So yes you should expect me to shout whattttt! Yes I did shout VERY LOUD! But Nidah, at least I din cover my ears! HAHA. The movie was okay overall, nothing new like those typical horror movie. Headed to MacCafe to have a drink. & walk around at Far East to find this particular shop, but we din manage to find it at last. HAHHHHH. Headed to Wisma & saw Qimmm sweetheart & Elsa. It was nice to see you girls ;) & qimm i did what you tell me to do okay OKAY! haha. Anw, Nidah & I headed to somewhere just to camwhore & headed home.

Well basically im telling you every detail we did, NOT EVERY la but most. Okay so enjoy the pictures & Nidah thanks for the day alright. I love you (:

2008-08-10T18:47:00.001+08:00

I look like who who who? Go figure.

Yes I camwhore again, no this time I was not bored but because I dont have new pictures. I decided to tie up my hair which I rarely do when taking pictures! I only took a few so enjoy the few pictures up there! & this pictures are specially for those people who likes seeing my pictures. Yes thats for u girls/guys :)

This is specially to TSK. To tell the truth, yes I am really happy with my life being a lesbian or not it does not matter cause I know I wanna enjoy life to the fullest. Yes im willing to do anything only if shes my girlfriend. As a matter of fact, I love long hair girls, really they do turn me on. I have a lot of thinkings. & Im also very choosy in choosing girls. Thats why if I think you are not the one I will leave you immediately cause I dont wanna drag things till it get worst. But for now, Im really tired of finding girls. Really, Im enjoying my single life for nearly 10months already. & I wish to continue it till I find the right girl to be my FIRST girlfriend. Nuff said, dont ask this typical2 lesbian question anymore. Ive said it all & thats it.

2008-08-09T23:58:00.017+08:00

Ayesha gembira laaa.

Frankie, told ya I look like you abit. Haha.

Imm Mary Wati

Part time scandal ehh ehh ehh -_________-" haha.

Wati :D

My lovely abangggg :D

Ah TMTM; the more the merrier! *grins to PVB* HAHA.

Met them at my voideck & walk off to the bustop, while walking there was this caucasian guy infront of us were walking towards us & fuckingly I din expect him to say Hi to me! Omg I tell you I was so fucking happy, really really he said 'HEY HI'. & I was out of words & just replied him 'OH HI HI!'. Hahaha. K random.

Headed to Marina starbucks to meet the rest. Alot of people & I mean it alot! I met alot of familiar faces. Tons of eye candies, & I had fun HELLO HELLO! But at first I look at 'em alone, cause my friends were all straight! So I cant expect to tell them which girl im looking at. Later on, the soccermates came & meet me. So I hello hello with them! Ayu was there too. &&& that girl, Keka youre cute :D [& u still havent reply my msg OKAY] HAHA. Anyway, I was so excited when I meet them, took pictures & I went off with the classmates. And I met Nidah awhile, nidah you really turn me on just now. You look spectacular & ure so hotttt! I miss you already & I love you too okay. I met Nina too, shes still so cute as per normal. Extra chubby of coz, & more cuter. But I met her awhile tho. (:

The guys reach late tho & OMFG I din expect thier girlfriends are so mother fuckingly HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT! I mean it they are so HOTTTTT! My guys classmates has grown up, DA PANDAI CARIK POMPUAN EH KORG. Lain kali ajak aku :D Haha k kidding. I just cant control myself and kept on talking with them non stoppppp! Esp with Nisha & Sonia(my part time girlfriend okay ;) HAHA) Then they went Sheesha, yati & I headed to Mac & reach home exactly 12midnight. We decided to chill & talk talk talk! I had fun talking with her. Yeah yati? I shall meet u more often! & also the guys. Anwar, AKMAL, Syahmi, Ipin, Hazlami, Dan, In & the main people. I love you guys. I love you girls more :D

2008-08-08T23:51:00.004+08:00

080808
Pictures are not taken from any events lately. & that picture is random.

Anyway, ive been busy with Floorball & Soccer. And yes im done with my pitching. Okay back to CCA, yeah ive been having trainings the whole week and im super shag. Really, I dont have enough rest at all. But uhuh I really had fun especially with my Soccermates. I even have a new family oi ! Ernie my mummy, shidah my daddy, ace my brother. HAHA. Cute k family kite. We had match with the staff just now & it was a draw 3-3. (& that mister kept eyeing on me eh!)Infact the stadium was crowded with people watching us. -.-" I like the part when we play with the balloons. We inhale the air & our voices turn out to be so damn fucking cute! HAHA really! You guys should try, how cute.

Headed to Marina after match with the Soccermates, & we chill there till 6pm. And followed them to CCK for Soffi's club training. So the four of us, Soffi, Has, Lala & myself had fun gossiping and story telling stuffs, some lesbian stuffs. Yes very fun talking with them indeed. Headed home with Lala & I reach home nearly 11pm. The guys wanted to meet me so badly so I met them at the wide open space, basketball court.

Met AKMAL, Ipin, Anwar & In. We sat and talk, telling ghost stories. Mind you, the place was fucking dark. & I get them to send me home after that. So we played this game, Chop chilli chop at 11.15pm okay. Crazy anwar wanna play it so badly. & Akmal wanna play the game NUMBERS so badly, who gets to guess thier number has to do 4 feet. I HAVE TO DO IT TWICE K! Mind you, I was the only girl & my 4 feet was I have to kiss thier forehead & nipples! Idiot. Gatal kan korg! Sheeeeeeesh. & reach home 12midnight exactly. I wanna go out with the 4c guys tomorrow, but my mother is not in a good condition. I cancelled Nidah's outing with me tomorrow due to this. I miss 4c so much, I wanna spend time with them tomorrow. But I will see how alright ;)

2008-08-04T20:36:00.002+08:00

The kiss of dawn. My very own Chip & Dale who will be by my side every night, haha lame I know but they are very cute ya know!
Blurified.

Current Mood; Sassy
Current Plug in; Tame - Prima J

I feel that today everyone is dead.

2008-08-03T22:41:00.002+08:00

I had kenduri earlier at my grandma crib. Like ive always mention, I dont really fancy family gatherings. 10 kali jumpe aku 10 kali ckp aku da besar. Nih la makcik2. Anw, I was suppose to help my father in the morning but due to a small fight yesterday I refuse too. I had my words, & thats it. Waited for the driver at 4pm to fetch me & headed to meet the cousins. Talk with my uncle(Rafi khan) about my course & he decided to bring me for his Mediacorp shoot on 16Aug. A ghost story movie. Grrrr. & he never fails to call me Power Ranger. -.-" The kids & I had clubbing tak menjadi punye at the room. I thought them to dance with the song NOW YOURE GONE. Hahaha fanatic eh.

This is random. But I miss having someone special. I miss saying 'baby, i love you'. I miss em saying I wanna hold your hand tight & never let go of you, I will be by yourside no matter what happens baby. Well last time my boyfriends use to say that. But now I want a girlfriend to say those words. I want a girlfriend baby..

2008-07-30T04:28:00.002+08:00

I told you I die in the end. See the blood! Actually when lying down I still can sleep for awhile. Cause I was too sleepy & tired. HAHA!
Sheesha-ing!Tini! Mary! Samy!

Chehh tini! Fierce uh gitu dgn baju skola. HAHAH!

Macam paham.

Farahhh muke maintain ah. Haha lol.

She is so lazy dont want to hold the camera!

Samy! Mary!

Had videoshoot after school today. It was nearly cancelled cause it was pretty much late already. But in the end we had night shooting at Bugis, started out at 10pm. I was so fucking sleepy. So I dont bother about what they were whining about & I slept one corner. My scene started out around 12 plus all the way to 3am sharp! Today is the scene where I get killed by Farah when Im trying to save Samantha. So yes, I died today. Haha lol.

To those who thought I went missing today, no I did not. I dont have time to talk to ya'll & plus my prepaid balance is $0. But I talk to Nina on the fone just now & it was nice hearing from you. 6kg! *kening naik naik.* I kept looking for you in school, but I guess we are not fated to bump into each other :\ Uhuhhh, I cab home & reach ard 4am. Im not really tired nor sleepy now cause I have enough sleep at Bugis already. I get sick with Sheesha. Hah!

2008-07-28T22:38:00.005+08:00

What can you expect? I AM SICK, see the face SEE! So buruk -.-"
Ridwan.

While waiting for my turn to act, I lepak-ing uh! I was sick the whole day, & my nose is being one irritating bitch! Tsk, nevermind I still love my nose very much. Suddenly I totally forget what we did in school today. Errrr, nevermind I cannot remember. But after that we had the 8mins videoshoot. I have to be thier cast. My role for today was easy, just walk. & while acting I was texting Aisyah. Haha! ;) My name in thier movie is Diana! Hahhh diana la sangat. But very sad you know, cause I will die in the end. -.-

Anyway, I bought Step Up 2 DVD just to do for my trailer. Semangat la abehhh! & cost nearly 30bucks oi! Heh. & btw I had a great talk with the guys just now. For the first time I enjoy talking to guys. HAHA! With Eugene esp, cause we normally exchange stories. So yeahh it was nice talking to you Eugene, Afiq, An ;)

2008-07-27T20:48:00.003+08:00

Soccer, 7 a side match.
Won 2nd. I score a goal,
Aisyah that goal is for you(birthday present) :D
Haha no uh. I still owe you your birthday present.
If you're not shy just now, I would give it to you! TSK!

Prizes for 1st runner up -
$16, Topper sport shoe, Topper shoe beg, 3 packets of stationaries.
Jealous? Nah its nothing much.

Those who dont know whats happening to me. You wont.
Those who know. You know.

2008-07-26T23:26:00.001+08:00

Sick.

2008-07-25T22:10:00.003+08:00

Samantha likes kissing me eh! ;) Macam studio kan.

Ite CE & Northlink(i think)

Number 7 number 7 ! - MaryMatch with em, we win. I was chosen to join the National Soccer Team under 19 ! If really is, Im gonna quit floorball. Coz I know I cant cope.

Anyway, Ive been avoiding alot of things. I just need sometime alone. I wanna dissapear for awhile. I will keep on blogging if I want to. & if you realise, Im treating you how exactly you treat me. You wanna get away from me kan, I will be more worst then that with you. I know the change of my attitude has been affecting alot of people,

BUT I DONT SEE ANY REASON IF THIS HAS AFFECT MY SECONDARY SCHOOL FRIENDS (excluded my ex-classmates). Dont blame anyone for no reason if you dont know the fact. Tengok diri sendiri dulu tuhh kat skola Springfield baru bobal sal aku k. Who start the fire first? YOU GIRLS, not me. I become like this I kept quiet, I just update it in my blog. Did I ever go around & tell you all of what I am now? Have I? Whose the one asking now? Me or you girls? Ask me personally why, DONT GO AROUND & BLAME SOME PEOPLE WHEN ACTUALLY SHE DID NOTHING WRONG. & let me get something clear here, bestfriend is a sensitive word. I ONLY HAVE 1 BFF & THAT IS LALA. No one else. Get this in your head.

Any more problems, come talk to me. I am still young & I wanna enjoy life. Maybe the way you girls enjoy life is different then I am. My environment is totally different from Secondarys. Sometimes think before you say. & understand how our lifes been going on.
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I feel so down right now, I can just easily break down & cry. To those people whom Ive done alot of bad things towards you, Im really sorry. An apology is all I can afford to do. From the bottom of my heart, really I am sorry. I will change back to the way I was, only that I need some time.

2008-07-23T19:12:00.008+08:00

Guess what I was doing? NINA really good in guessing this. HAHA.
Current Mood: Sleepy
Current Music: Big girls dont cry, Fergie

The first thing the girls did once I reach school a lil late, we camwhore. Actually theres more pictures, but will receive it from Jerome tomorrow. So anyway, today Tini & I were so sleepy the whole day. Yes really, but I did concentrate during NLE. Eventho I kinda wandering idly at times. Hehhhhh! I was thinking too much lately. Today no eye candies, boring!

Omg, I am so fucking sleepy right now. Someone sleep with me will you?

2008-07-22T23:02:00.004+08:00

'em girls thought I was eurasian -.-"
School was great today. Put aside the sleepyness! Other then that I dont know why but I want everyday to be like today, everything's cool. My NLE project 3 of us scored B for it :) Lagu kite power k! BRITNEY SPEARS. -.-" & I really cant wait for the next invidual assignment, have to make a trailer from any movie. Cool kannnn! I think I can be good in editting. (cheh perasan eh)

Ive been eyeing on girls in school lately, esp 'em bt & rt. Figure it out whats that. I SAW NICKY TODAY & I WAS ALL HAPPY TO MYSELF. She look at me back & smile, hahhhhhhh. Omg k stop. & I went to 'em bt girls just now, as I was talking, eye contacting & body languages. Heeeeee! Im so happy I fling around with girls. Wait, I still have more to tell. I was walking happily without noticing someone infront of me & shit she was just infront of me, just one step away and we stare at each other for a moment & I dont know whats with you showing me that kening naik naik sigh. Random. Im really enjoying myself flinging ard with the girls, Im not dating anyone nor in a relationship and no one has any rights to be jealous etc. Best or whatttt!

On a lighter note; I finally found someone who agrees with me that FROZEN COOKIES TASTE ALOT NICER THEN THE HOT ONES! We even have alot of similarities! & that is none other then my Jane(Syazified). My Mary Jane :D Yes yes shes been entertaining me this 3 days. Some friends come & go and Jane I hope you are not one of them k sweetheart ;) And Qimm dear, when are you gonna sit beside me? Its been very very cold lately. You eating brownie right? You should try frozen cookies next time k :D That BT girl, will you stop staring me, eye contacting with me, body languages & JUST talk to me??! I hint2 ready pun still dont want to make the first move, leceh la. HAHA. Aliyah was so happy that both of us have a mix blood of arab & malay! Haha high 5 eh! Dinner/bump soon at bedok okay? ;) Nina, why are you anti-so SIAL? Its still lingers in my mind if that was you earlier, wherever you are I hope you're doing fine :) Lastly, Nidah dear. Where have you been? Whats happening? Im lost really..

BFF I MISS YOU, HOPE TO SEE YOU ON THURSDAY.

2008-07-21T23:59:00.002+08:00

I wanna post a picture that Yan took in the MRT who looks really like me! Yes really, & to add in 5 people already been asking me whether I work at Giordano or not, cause this girl whose working at Taka Giordano really looks like me too. GO SEE K! I tell you, my face is everywhere. My face is so common! Macam bersepah gituh. Wherever you go, you will see my face (cheh bedek ah!)

School was nothing much FULLSTOP!

My first day of work at Swensen, YES I GET A JOB THERE. & I tell you today will be my first & last day sia. It really sucks to the max! Well actually F&B is really not my thing. I get disgusted by people left over foods. I dont know how to sweep the floor, to mop so nvm I dont bother. I prefer salesgirl tho, so easy. I make new friends tho! Like Izyan, Nana, Maam Idah ahh lagi banyak la. Malas nk mention. & I reach home ard 11.50pm. Hahhhhh! Thanks Syazified for msging me all the way till I reach home! My MARY JANE! :D Lala & Mary came to Swensen but they just see me from outside! LALA & MARY YOU KNOW I WANNA HUG YOU GIRLS SO MUCH! TSKKKK!

Note to Girls;
Dont just labelled yourself as lesbian & fling around with girls and make them having high hopes on you. Cause in the end you dont love girls you just wanna tell the whole world that I FUCK GIRLS TOO. So what? Trying to tell them that you're THE HERO? Dont pretend that you have experience it for a long time when deep inside you actually you still love guys. Its just pretty fucking annoying when a lesbian still love a guy. Tell me about it eh, please. You're in a crooked world & you're suppose to love a girl. Not going back to the past with ex boyfriends & next thing you say I AM A LESBIAN. Such a loser -.-"

This may sound surprise to some of you. But to the dearest girl, Nina. Yes Nina I really miss you. I miss you as a FRIEND. Dont worry, Im not angry with you anymore. Yes maybe a lil but its not like those typical stuffs like I CANT LIVE MY LIFE WITHOUT YOU, no. Not like that. Remember the first time we became friends? How happy & sincere we were as friends? Remember the first day I went home with you? I sacrifice my friends pizza hut treat just to go home with you just because you stay near me. I miss disturbing you Mina Mustafa. Yes people may call me stupid to be friends with you again, but afterall Nina you are my friend. That 2months was just an extra love we had. Fake or not, I dont know. But it was a bad & wonderful journey dont you think so? Yes for a moment Im hurt & I hate you alot. I mean it ALOT! Its been a month already I move on, and now I dont see any reason why I should hate you anymore because we have move on. I hope to see you real soon okay ;)

2008-07-20T19:48:00.013+08:00

I still like this the most.

Im suppose to have photoshoot today with the guy photographer BUT I woke up at 2.30pm. How to go uh? It will take me an hour to get ready & perhaps 2 more hours to reach there. So I told him forget about it, lets postpone it to next week or other days perhaps.

So since I have nothing to do & I have Sery's camera with me I camwhore la ape lagi ! Guess who was the photographer? My loser brother. HAHA! Eventho he din know anything about photography but I think he snap some nice pictures up there(tgk uh sape ajar die! HIAKK ERHM), only that some turn out blur! Tskkk! Nevermind, I was too hyper taking pictures till I was too tired to follow my family for dinner at ECP.

Im so sick of everything.

2008-07-19T23:51:00.002+08:00

First of all, Happy 16th Brithday to Nidah baby. HIAKKK ERMMM, da sweet 16 sehhhh! Haha, I hope you like the presents & all okay ;) I love you & I miss you. I wish today you dont have netball & out with us! Tskkkkk! Nevermind :D
Fun shots. Qimmm. [she was so noisy & hyper today! why ah why? see me hyper ehh?] Ehh your friend tuhh, HELLO HELLO! Hahaha. Fan, Utt, Im.Anwar & Akmal (MY EX BF that ive been talking abt) Lala's Shots. Mary's Shots

My Shots. Sweet kan dorang. Aku jealous. HAHA jealous la sangat. Then, I ask them to make this retarded face. So you see, pictures shall do the talking. I enjoyed my day with Ayu, Lala & Mel.

HELLO HELLO with Ayu was fun eh eh eh! Haha. Met alot of familiar faces. Small world la sangat. Im really tired. Goshhhhhh! Bye.

2008-07-18T22:37:00.000+08:00

Mine.Hot kan!I dont dare to take a picture with a cat! BUT this look something different then those typical people who took a pic with thier cats/kittens.:))
Lara Jade take nice pictures! I wanna be like her can? Chehh perasan. I wanna take pictures like that! I wanttttt! I will, tomorrow :D One of this guy wanna take my pictures tomorrow for his dont know what uh. Cool or whatttt! But its very far! At sembawang. Tskkk, nvm for photoshoot Im willing to go anywhere :D & after that im gonna meet Lala Mary & Ayu for more photoshoots! :D Im so sadddd Nidah cant make it tmrw :\

Today school, we get to end our NLE project by today. It was a satisfaction after I done the edittings all. It was cool for me, because its the first time I edit this kind of thing. Our theme was National Day but our songs all was from britney spears & Cyclone. HAHA! Cool u know I edit. Okay maybe retarded abit but uh huh I make an effort for 3 hours okay. Editting besttttt! Best la sangat. Haha.

Someone's birthday is tomorrow sehhhhhhhhhhhh! ;) *kening naik2*

2008-07-17T21:48:00.003+08:00

Samantha baby, thanks for the rose. I love you heaps baby ;)

Yesterday was nothing. Boring much.
Today was something. Was a short day in school during lesson time. But had lotsa fun during Floorball Inter- err inter ape ah? Wateva it is uh. I was in the same team as Bella, Yati, Dayana, Utt & Ana/Aishah.. Later on Ace join us. If Ace join us a lil earlier I bet we can win. We din win any of the match. But was a tie 0-0. Pathetic la sangat! But I had fun, injured people. HAHA. The worst part was I make Wati fall & I fell on top of her. I make Wati fall alot of times! & Nadia too. & some of the girls. Hehhh Im so sorry. Gotta bear with it girlsss. I dont give a damn inside court. But outside court different story. Hehe hehe hehe. & the girls kept saying im cheeky *kening naik naik*

I make new friends, cause they said I was cute. HAHA, cute la sangat! But overall I really had fun with them, we'll meet again on 30 july alright. Cheers ;)

every minute i wish to hear from u but i dont

2008-07-15T16:38:00.007+08:00

This one looks retarded. haha
Like they say, boredom leads to random. -____-" Someone is jealous of my pictures, haha. You just take your camera, stay in your room, wear some random cloths & just snap. Done.

I did not go to school today due to my ass! Yeahh seriously, it hurts like hell. All those people who msg me, sorry I din reply. MY SLEEPING IS MORE IMPORTANT THEN UR MSGES. Hahhhh! ;) Well actually today is a special day for me & someone. We usually celebrate this day for our friendship/sister day, I dont know if she ever remember but wateva. Why should I bother right. Im boreddddddddddddddd. Friendster is being a bitch! I kept uploading pictures but it din turn out. Bodoh! -.-"

2008-07-14T23:05:00.002+08:00

I love this 3 shots that I took for them. I love the pictures & the models alot ;) Black & White pictures can be nice at times. Lala & Mary.
Lala & Mary. Mary Mentel.HAPPY 9TH MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO ME!
& HAPPY 4TH MONTH ANNI TO SAMANTHA & FARAH!
I HOPE THE 2 OF YOU LAST LONG OKAY BITCHES.

I finally met Lala & Mary today! They fetch me from school & im so happy to finally meet them after a few week sof not meeting. They came along with Rynn. Headed to Sempang to have dinner, & headed to ECP. I snap some of Lala's & Mary pictures. Had a drink at ECP and headed home. It was only while, & due to some cases we din enjoy that much. BUT I hope to go out more with you girls real soon. I miss you already & I love my Bff and my twin ;)

I finally come to my senses today. For a moment I am being serious about relationship, ive been thinking alot. I love girls not because of the gender but because of what she is, partly coz girls do turn me on too. I was born to like girls I guess, & you know I have 9 ex boyfriends & 0 ex girlfriends. Yes I dont have any ex girlfriends. But that dosent mean I dont know how to treat girls cause Ive been dating them only. I want my first girlfriend to be faithfull, its not about a matter of having a relationship for only a month or 2, but as long as we could think of going far with our relationship, no guys ever involve in between us, SERIOUSLY I find it distracting when once you're a lesbian but still contacting with some guys, will you love me every morning the same, will you shower me with love & never ever let me suffer or drown in a situation that will turn our love to sour, tolerate with our nonsensical jokes, will you be afraid to tell/show the public of what we are, will you pamper me more then a girlfriend, will you always think about us & not some other guys/girls, guide each other in all circumstances together, as long as we have each other we dont need to worry about anything because you'll be safe & i'll be safe, & as long we trust each other and never EVER LIE to each other, I bet we will enjoy our relationship with less conflicts & we'll always be dreaming on in our fantasy world.. MARY & .... world ;) I dont want you to be just in the pages of my diary, but to complete the pages in my diary with your name in the end. Sooner or later I will know whose the special girl, cause PATIENT IS THE KEY right ;)

People say, never judge the book by its cover. I may look innocent, yeahh I was once a good decent girl. After some incident people have this change of mindset about me, & now I wish to turn thier mindset back again as usual. I wanna turn back to a good girl again. No smoking, no drinking, no getting high (this one i will try HAHA!) & NO MORE DOING STUPID STUFFS IN SCHOOL. Okay I just had a long chat with my elder sister, & I cant wait for her to come back Singapore so we can bitch more :D I know alot of people know my elder sister, so once you know her you should know me too. HAHA! :D

2008-07-13T22:28:00.015+08:00

My favourite picture for the day ;)
I kissed her and I liked it, the taste of her cherry chapstick :) -i love my nose oi. HAHAH

Her editsMentel!Cute kan. HAHAHA! Nidah :) My soccer camp was alright. Day 1 - Farah, Yati & Myself went for the camp around 9pm. Had satay & chicken. Play ball with the girls & I FELL DOWN 2 TIMES! That night itself I injured myself for being so confident to jump and catch the ball but ended up I hit the wave rock. Watever it is called -___- Later on at night, I start taking laughing gas first. & the rest join in, Raudha first time taking it was hell funny. She look so funny! HAHA. I was lying down & she say 'I WANT A KISS'. Haha giler. I was goneeeee first, I really cant take it my head was spinning like hell because I took the most. I cant even remember what I did, but I feel someone slept just beside me & kept hugging me. The next morning I know it was Raudha -.- Em told me what happen & Raudha is so slenge bacin, eventho I just knew her better that night. Haaa!
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Day 2 - They had a hard time waking me up. Being one clumsy girl I din bring my sports shoe so had to use the store room shoes for the morning jog. Burn all those fats baby, we ran for nearly 5km. Yati & I had the idea of playing baseball & the rest join us. We had a proper baseball game at the field! It was hilarious! We did not practice for our soccer match but instead played baseball till the Republic Poly students came, I guess they are wondering why the hell are we playing baseball. Match with them was alright, we won 4-1. There's this girl who came to watch for the match. She told Fifi I was pretty & when I blush infront of her she was laughing at me & Im so shy.. :$ After the match headed to east coast park, ton till 2am and Yati & I headed to Sam house. All the girls were having fun & slept at 6am.

Day 3 - I woke up at 12pm. Qimm, she know me very well the way she text me. However, I went to accompany Nidah to Vivo, because I miss her so muchhhhhh! ;) & I waited for her for 40mins. -_____- Headed to Vivo to find for her stuffs, & we talk alot of nonsence stuffs.. HIAKK ERM.. Haha. Camwhore while scorching the sun. Every minute spend with her will always be cherish love :) Because its very hard for us to meet you know, she live at Jurong while I live at Bedok. But that dont matter, what matter is how far we are I still love you ;) Met Qimm awhile. You were just saying you miss me in the morning, & I met u already :) & we walk around, window shopping, had Coffee Bean, camwhore, & someone is so amaze to have the same camera as Nidah's, they came to us & say 'SAME SAME'. HAHAHA sumpah kental sia. After a while we headed home, I head to my Grandma house to pay a visit. Meet my little cousins, cute la sangat. Walk back home, & saw alot of people that includes my ex boyfriendS. Tau tak jalan balik. Haaaaaa! Okay thats all bye!

2008-07-09T19:48:00.006+08:00

Farlini, u mcm ade double chin! HAHA! Mate aku steammmmmm -___-
Hahaha! Everytime I wanna type about today I tend to laugh. So I will start laughing first! HAHAHAHA! I, no WE really laugh our ass out early today. No actually Me, Tini & Lin only. We wanted to tell Yati & Fina about what happen yesterday in the toilet, but everytime I wanna tell them I laugh more then I tell. So the 3 of us laugh our ass out at cafe 1 like a mad pig. HAHA I swear it was funny because Farlini is toooooo selenge. Read the conversations about what happen in the toilet..

Farlini: blablabla 'ya allah!'
Tini: OI!
Farlini: APER? APER? (without knowing the fact why TINI WAS SAYING OI BECAUSE SHE SAID YA ALLAH INSIDE THE TOILET, & she kept asking APERRRRR?)
Me: LAUGH OUT LOUD
Farlini: LAUGH ALONG
Tini: LAUGH ALONG TOGETHER

We kept on laughing till Farlini had a hard time peeing & I had a hard time wearing my undergarments & boxer back! HAHAHAHA. Okay Im laughing like a mad girl now. Anyways, PE today was boring BECAUSE ALL THE GIRLS DIN WANNA PLAY! Boring sia. So Sam, Yati & I went somewhere and do something stupid which make us fucking high. & my eyes was really steam like the picture above -.-

After school, I met Nana Springfield (name glamour kan nana) for awhile. I wanted to meet elyssa too! I thought nana was with her but no nana was alone, I met her awhile at TAMPINES INTERCHANGE. Tuh pun aku happy k, haha. I dont like going to tampines interchange ya know! Because you can never expect who you will meet there, all kind of peoples la kan. -.- Brrrrr, & lucky Im not staying in Tampines.

I MISS LALABFF! I MISS MARY! I MISS NIDAH! I MISS FAZHLI!

2008-07-08T22:23:00.010+08:00

Lanyard tak perlu -.-

I swear we were like the first few days of school like just get to know each other. & I CANT STOP LAUGHING WITH FARLINI & HARTINI AROUND! HAHA.

The moment I was at the usual place where we will always meet, the time I will send you to class, fetch you from your class, accompany you bought coconut drinks, sit at the staircase opposite the stadium, telling me those fake words saying I LOVE YOU, hugs & kisses, & you like tickling me, always give me that weird look, telling me 'B MY CLASS JUST BELOW URS, I WANNA MEET YOU', telling teachers you're having stomachace just to meet me, being one irritating girl always get me fed up, sending you home & invite me to your house &.., you send me to the bustop & will always look out for the bus because I am potek, lying in my face inside the cab, i drop off after a few bustop because u thought ur father is sending u to school but no & ask me to wait for you, & being a bitch at last. Everything came in one time, theres more but dont need to mention. & when my friends saw you, they automatically text me today. Your name your face were everywhere today, because I hate you so much.

12345678910 girls, but only 1 will be my girlfriend okay (:
I MISS NIDAH!

Someone is getting sick of guys & wants to be my PL partner. Haha awwwww.

JUST A FEW MINUTES AGO, I JUST FINISH TALKING TO NIDAH ON THE FONE, & MY MUM WANNA TALK TO ME. I WAS REALLY FUCKING HIGH & MY MUM THOUGHT I WAS DRUNK. SHE GET REALLY SCARED I TALK LIKE THAT, AND TO PREVENT HER FROM INVESTIGATING MORE I TRIED TO STOP BEING HIGH & SUDDENLY I TALK SERIOUS, BUT THE FUNNY PART WAS THE WAY I TALK TO MY MOTHER 'CHILL AH, TAK PYH NK LECTURE2 LAGI AH ORG NGANTUK BABE!' HAHA NIDAH HEARD IT! YOU SHOULD ASK HER HOW FUNNY IT IS. ARHAHA. Playful la sangat. K bye

2008-07-07T19:06:00.007+08:00

Yati sot.
Tini becok.

Thanks to farlini eh! Farlini mak nenek! 1 + 2 + 3 = Kecoh la sangat! I miss you nomore girl. haha

Tini,Yati,Mar,Lin. Samantha & fina missing.

First day of school was awesome, & I finally meet my lovely classmates again. Lovely la sangat! :D Have our new time table, & really Im getting use to it eh. Okay stop, I wanna stop talking. Girls, I really had fun disturbing Farlini about her fractured leg. Da pakai slipper macam minah selekeh! HAHAHA no lah, i still love you tho k :)

The introduction to Mr Boi was so COOL eh! Haha, ade gay boys inside my class and when its my turn, he disturb me about me & Hafian coz when my turn to introduce Hafian disturb me. & I immediately say Im not interested in guys. & HE ASK ME I GO PLAY OR NOT! Hahaha! Kecoh k, I still underage laaaaa.

I DREAM ABOUT THE SAME PEOPLE AGAIN, BUT DIFFERENT STORY. OMGGGG -.-

2008-07-06T20:37:00.005+08:00

Actually gambar nih no motive ah. But when I blog there must be at least 1 picture or else my entry looks boring!

Anyway, school starting soon which is like TOMORROW? Tskk, I wish I had one more week or one more month eh. No no, actually I had enough of holidays. I miss my classmates, I miss the girls. The guys, never k. HAHA. No lahh I miss everyone of you ;) My new time table sucks k, tues-thurs school's end at 6pm! And Monday, soccer. Tuesday, Floorball. & PVB TOMORROW SCHOOL STARTS AT 8AM, STOP ASKING ME AFTER THIS -.-

My plain Sunday was like any other sundays, boring gile. I spend my time with DVD's, movie marathon, talking on the phone with Nidah, chatting with some human being. & Qimm injurt her leg too! & now both of us are retarded. HAHA. Shes craving for Secret recipe cakes, Im craving for Coconut drinks! Omgg, why I am craving for Coconut drinks nihhh? Tskkk.

2008-07-05T23:55:00.005+08:00

& if you happen to read my blog, I miss you already miang girl. Haha. Da gitu jek ah crite die k, thats it ah. ;) If I were to get drunk just now, you are so gonna hear my oh-so-tak-perlu voice & I will talk nonsence for sure. Haha. & girl, you should know that you're an amazing girl ;) Even if you deny it, you really are. Complete the sentece that starts with the letter I... *kening naik naik* :)

Had street soccer match, nothing much I sprain my ankle badly & I went off early cause I went to help Nana with her chalet thingy2. I really cant wait to hang out with her thats why I left early & uh huh. Met Nana, & I dont know why I kept calling her Lala la, Nani la, NINA la. Grrrrr! Of all names siak. K then help everything out to settle down & I went to sleep! Because I really cant take it with my ankle. God damn pain k. I can easily cry anytime. Ohh you guys should know, im very weak in this injuries. Haiqal help me massage my leg & I kept shouting like as if I was being rape. HAHA! Met some of the Springfielders again, it was awesome. I really miss you guys tho.

The party start ard 9pm, we had to wear those mask & party hats which make me look like a 12 year old girl instead. HAAAAA. I thought of drinking later at night & maybe overnight BUT thing is, my sprain ankle really hurts & I wont have fun for sure so I cab back home. & I bump into my father on the way home. EEEEEEHHHHH tak perlu sia bump2 into each other kat road! Uhh wateva. & HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO DEAREST HUDA :D & Nana, dont worry to much, you did nothing wrong today. TAKUT NAH TGK AKU IN THIS CONDITION EH. Haha ;)

Im gonna stay home all the day tomorrow. I bet its gonna be a boring Sunday as usual! LIYANA'S VENDING MACHINE IS GETTING ON MY NERVES! I PRESS FOR COCONUT DRINK BUT STRAWBERRY DRINK YANG KELUAR!

2008-07-04T23:37:00.010+08:00

My miang girlfriend ;)My day was spent with Nidah & Lala. Went over to Lala house to play street soccer together with her adik sedare. I had fun kicking balls with Lala & flirting with Nidah (HA HA). The rest of the day was nothing much. & I dont know why Ive been craving for coconut drink. Today itself, I drank 3 coconut drinks k!

I cant wait for tomorrow Soccer & Nana's chalet ;)
I WENT FRIENDSTERING & I CAME ACROSS SYED AZMIR FRIENDSTER! & OMGGGGG HOW COULD I FORGET HIS BIRTHDAY! SHIT SHIT! HOW COULD I MANNNN? OH MY GODDDDD! HE WAS JUST BEING NICE WITH ME THE OTHER DAY & I FORGET HIS BIRTHDAY? AHHH GEREK. K SORRY AH. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ABANG AZMIR :D & I KEPT FORGETTING HOW OLD ARE YOU? HOW OLD, 23/24? DA TUA, STANDARD. & YOU SHOULD WATCH MY SOCCER MATCH AT KL THE OTHER DAY BUT I DIN KNOW HOW TO CONTACT YOU! BUT NVM, & SORRY I USE YOUR BEG AND NOW IT STINKS LIKE HELL. HAHAHA!

2008-07-04T03:25:00.005+08:00

Remember the first day we enter church? We were so jakun then. And after that all of us went to Orchard together. THAT WAS THE FIRST & THE LAST OUTING ALL THE 4C GIRLS WENT OUT TOGETHER. But that was during sec2 okay! Remember when I use to fight with Nadhirah & all of you girls help us out? Part of it you girls were frustrated coz both of us were stubborn! Haha.

Remember those days we played baseball inside the class? Remember when everytime I HAVE TO CLEAN UP THE CLASSROOM & I WILL ALWAYS SAY OUT VULGARITIES TO THE GUYS coz you were the one who mess up the class? Remember I will always shout to you guys to shut the fuck up? Remember I will always bully the girl at the end there?(I wonder what school she is now?) Remember when the girls use to hate the guys? Remember when I help those guys escape from school? Remember when we went to Mandai camp together? Remember the 4 years we have gone through together? Remember how the teachers would hate our class just because we are Normal Technical students? But afterall, we are the champion in sports?

Remember the last time I use to like him. & this pic was the first time I take a picture with him & I was so happy then and I kept saying 'EHH AKU AMIK GMBR DGN DIE! YATI AKU DPT AMIK GMBR DGN DIE LA SIAAA!' Hahaha! & i kept looking at the picture again & again! & remember the time he punch Mr Watson face? Gangster k ni budak.

Remember we use to have maths night classes with Mr Tan, & we kept lying to someone we din go but in the end we turn up? Remember this day I came for nothing? I went & disturb people while they were sturuggling with maths, & I went like 'maths senang jekk korg, jom kite pergi jalan2..aku nak jalan2, aku tak nak blaja'. & remember when Mr Tan was so angry in class and I came up to him to give my maths file when he just said no one could even stand up & he automatically shout at me? And the whole class was laughing out loud after he scold me! HAHAHAHAHA. Remember this day we went airport with the guys. Trying to study hard for maths, but we ended up gossiping about our classmates. & I STILL REMEMBER WHEN I WENT TO THE TOILET FOR SO LONG COZ I DEFECATED & U GUYS WERE TALKING ABOUT ME ! And when I came back, yati told me everything. Haha yes syahmi, ipin she told me ;) Remember yati, when I accompany you to your friend concert at Ite Simei & I ended up sleeping and you were talking alone & praising your friends while I was sleeping? HAHAHA. After that we had a hard time flagging a cab! Nb cb k. Remember when I use to be so thin & small and have short hair? & during CPA lesson, we were told to draw a lion at corelDRAW & yati ur lion tail turn out to be so retarded & I kept laughing. HAHAHA, whereas mine also. & remember we will always fight with Mr Sim. My enemy teacher will always be Mr Eric, he will always ask me to clean up the classroom! If not he will call the principal because our classroom is always dirty! Remember our last day out? We break fast together & went esplanade after that. & yati we have to endure that day coz it was fasting day & I had videoshoot, and you waited for me. Which then makes your shirt dirty coz u sat at the wrong place. Haha kental. Remember when I use to hate my bangs? & everytime I went out I will do temporary rebonding? REMEMBERRRR?Remember how we react everytime during assembly? We kept looking at the mirror to see whether out tie were okay, our hair would be neat, our face will look fine, our socks..EVERYTHING! & I dont even know how to do my tie. Remember the time we use to disturb dayana how short she is. Remember, I was a good student & a role model to all of you back then? Remember those time in class, everytime the 3 of us will get scolded by teachers? Even get kick out from class CAUSE WE ATE TOO MUCH IN CLASS. Every CPA/EOA lesson those teachers will aim us & will always scold us ESP DAYANA. HAHA! Remember we kept laughing after we get scolded from Mr Lee? HAHAHA perangai siak k. Remember the day we had couples/scandals day out? The guys went one corner & the girls went the other corner to take pictures. After that we exchange to see whose is better? & remember you guys will always get scared when Im having my period? Till I slap one of your faces? & I even punch yati? HAHHHHH!Remember those days when we even fight cause Im better in science then u guys? I was even the class chairman & I even get the most good role model student award among the whole school shit thingy? Remember when we use to fight againts each other in Maths, English & Science? Remember wen we use to hate each other the first time we met? Remember when u guys use to disturb me about Faz? Remember Faz always treat me better then you guys, abeh korg jealous? HAHAH.

NOW DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW MUCH I MISS SECONDARY LIFES WITH YOU GUYS? & now is 3:25am k mind you.

2008-07-03T23:15:00.003+08:00

Met Lala & Mary, then headed to Potong Pasir. Have Street Soccer training, & hell yeah it was hilarious. At first I was shy because I din know anyone in my team. I was really really shy, but I manage to score 2 goals. :D On the other hand, I injured this chinese girl. Ohh my Im so sorry. & I fell down 3 times k! One time Lala make me fell & I shout loudly OI ! Second time Lala & this big size lady, both of them attack me. Termelayang2 k aku. Third time this women she really hit me hard mann till I fell down. & Mary was there laughing. Then Lala shout & say 'DA LA JATUH MACAM NANGKE BUSUK', then kan everyone laugh seh :( So bad. But overall today's training was awesome. I cant wait for Saturday Street Soccer match! I will be meeting all kinds of people, all kinds of girls! GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS! Tak bole concentrate nye main game -____- Anyway, we need 2 more players, interested tell me :)

RANDOM DREAM..

Anyway, I dreamt about Frankie & Lala this morning! Here goes the random dream, I was walking to Tampines Interchange when I saw both of them was totally drunk! Mate steam gile k. So I went to them & one of this MAMAK came to me & tell me what they did last night, they drank la! So I carry the 2 of them up, Lala was okay by then but this Frankie she cant even walk properly & ask me to carry her. So I carry her all the way to dont know whose house, but I send lala home first. KUAT KAN AKU ANGKAT FRANKIE ALL THE WAY. Haha! So yeahh I was waiting for Frankie to wake up, I KISS HER K and she immediately wake up & she was shock coz she was drunk! Then she immediately update her livejournal about it! HAHAHA. But I know she was really really cute in my dream. Really! Haha so random.

2008-07-01T22:07:00.002+08:00

I want all of you to see my eyelashes! Nice kan, random k.
I went to make ic in the morning. My mum woke me up at 11am! I woke up & my ass really hurts k! The women who serve me was hmmmmmmm *smile widely* Went for a little shopping at tampines mall with my mum & even she said without my siblings its really peaceful. SHE SPEND 60BUCKS ONLY ON MY SISTER, & 15BUCKS ONLY ON ME? Wahhhh I give her the long face siaaaa. -_____________-

I went floorball training today. If I know there wont be any friendly match today I swear I wont come k. I dont know, suddenly I got no fucking mood to even play. Everytime when I enter in the court I will just you know laze here & there. Suddenly, its boring.

& suddenly just suddenly, I feel so sad. I dont know why, I have no idea what is it about. But feelings come naturally right, I cant get rid of it & I dont know I still feel so sad now ): I dont feel like talking to anyone right now -.-

2008-06-30T23:35:00.001+08:00

I went cycling with LalaBff today. Our plan was to go gym, but she said she her backbone was hurting so we tend to go jogging at Bedok Reservoir. But once she reach my house, we plan to go cycling! & yeah we did.

From my house we cycled to 700+ first to pump the tyre & Lala went to visit THIS GIRL AH, GOT LA THIS GIRL. Nak sebut name die pun menyampah ah. So I wait for her outside. So we move on & cycle to tampines. & I saw Syaz -.- One thing I dont like to cycle to tampines coz cfm I will bump into someone. But wth Bff is with me, not that im alone. Cycle to Lala's aunty house & then to Nana house! Wahhhhh! At last I get to meet you eh nana! Had a lil chat about those Springfielders, hot topic katekan. & I really cant wait to go to your chalet, kalau aku overnight lagi gerekkkk k! :D

On our way back home, it was raining heavily. FUN K CYCLE HUJAN2! Reaching my house ready k, & I FELL DOWN. Lala not helping at all! She look at me & laughing all the way! Tak baikkk. haha! Cycle lame2 pantat sakit k -.- We webcam-ing with Frankie & I swear we were fucking insane! Lala & I looks like a fool tho, but wth we were having fun! HAHA right FRANKIE? Suare classic k frankie. HAHA :D & just now I went friendstering, for the first time I saw this group of girls, ALL 8 OF THEM ARE FUCKINGLY HOT YOU KNOW *JAWS DROP* K dah tu jek.

TOMORROW MORNING IM GONNA MAKE A NEW IC. OH MY GOD! Kene amik gmbr baru yg so tk glamour tuh. & I WILL BE HAVING FLOORBALL MATCH WITH SINGAPORE POLY. Wooooooo, girls girls girls *kening naik naik* I cant wait to tell Qimmm about the girls. Just wait for tomorrow night okay sweetheart! HAHA ;)

2008-06-29T23:53:00.008+08:00

This editting sucks laaaaa. Have to do it quickly.

Lala's Photography & Edit. LOOK AT MY EYES! Tak pakai contact lens k. Okay I admit I sleep worst then a pig. I actually have Street Soccer Match today at bedok north at 7.30am. I have to meet Lala at 7am. But I called her in the morning ard 6 plus, she din pick up so I thought she was sleeping & I went back to sleep. I din realize my phone was ringing like fuck with 17 miss calls by Lala & Mary. & I wake up at 12.30pm. Heeeeeee! Sorry & yeah I miss the match.

I met them there, & woahhh ade cutestuff! Haha. That no.14 girl. I was looking at the guys behind her & I din realise that my eyes was on her and so she was looking at me. And she caught my eye for awhile. Heh heh *kening naik naik* I saw NANI too! Shes in the same team with No.14! I met new friends, like Ummaira, Aida & Elly. Maira is in the same team as no.14 too! But the thing is, maira likes me I guess. HAHA. Maira is cute tho ;)

Specially to that watsoever girl: You know you're the worst bitch that Ive ever met in my entire life. PLEASE, DONT TELL ME THAT IM BEING HARSH. I use to love you like crazy. Now I fucking hate you like crazy, bitch. Oh I forgot, you dont even know how to appreciate people's love. Motherfucking hypocrite. If you're saying I make you realize loving a girl is hurtful then why still flirting with my BFF? SHE IS MY TWIN GIRLFRIEND OKAY. & if you ever gonna make them apart Im so gonna screw you bitch. You hate the 2 of us? Do you think we give a fuck about it? Eh kehilangan kawan macam kau tak heran langsung la eh. I still dont know if this hurts you, because a girl like you seems to dont have any feelings. So I dont see a reason why u should be hurtful kan? Thanks for all the lies you tell me. You think I din know, I have knew it all along but I kept quiet. I have a very nice heart because I care about people's feelings. You dont fucking give me excuses that im flirting with other girls infront of you eh pompuan. Kau tuh yang bodoh sangat tak tau tengok whats happening. NAK CKP ORG! TGK DIRI SENDIRI DULU LA SIA. Kau jangan nk pretend2 ahh, depan aku lain, blkg aku lain. Mintak kene sepak sia. After this dont bother to call/text me anymore. I WANT YOU TO FUCKING DELETE MY NUMBER FROM UR HANDPHONE K. Nanti ex boyfriend kau tengok kann nanti die rembat kau. -.- & i also dont see any reason why I should still be nice with you. You think you have everything now? You'll see by the end of the day you will loose everything I tell you.

2008-06-28T23:59:00.016+08:00

BLUR BLUR!
Muke die tk yah nampak. HAHA.

Lala, Mar, Nidah (:Syiok sendiri mcm biase :D Muke Nidah selalu tak nampak. See. Selalu half jek muke. Aku tau aku pendek. Diam ah. I dont know why I close my eyes -.- However, I like this picture best :) I had a date with the 3 lovely ladies, LalaBFF & Mary & Nidah baby (: before that I had to work in the morning to help my mother & after that I met them. So I was kinda tired actually & thats why Im not that really hyper.

Head to town to catch the movie WANTED. [Chehhh Nidah dpt lepas Nc 16 movie] HAHA. Ohh well, It was a great movie tho. Esp with Angelina Jolie in the movie. Woooooooo, eyes on her eyes on her! Teehee :D & then headed to Wisma for a lil shopping/window shopping. Had Starbucks and head to Esplanade. OHHH MY! Saturday full of mat & minah reps. HAHA. Okay not all but mostly I shall say. & most of them I saw was the myspacers only that I dont bother to talk to them. Heeeeee. We camwhore & headed home.

& girls, I really had fun with you girls today. Nidah baby, thanks for making my day my dear. & gorgeous, I fell in love with you in just a day! IM NOT SWEET TALKING HERE. Haha! I love you LalaBFF, I love you MARY, I love you NIDAH Baby (:

BESOK ADE BOLA DGN LALA. JUMPE LALA & MARY LAGI! YAYYYYYY. & maybe meeting Liyana also! Yayyyyyy, aku miss kau la bacin. K bye.

2008-06-27T22:02:00.002+08:00

I dont have nice body, mind you. & LALA ONE IS HOTTER :D I took this yesterday, but I forget to upload it & mind you this is the third entry for today. Shit ass, bye.

2008-06-27T20:09:00.003+08:00

Lala's Hot Picture (:
Frankie's Hot Picture (:

Like I said earlier, Im so bored until I chat with this two girls, FRANKIE & LALA BFF! Chat with them slalu happening okay! & THANKS TO FRANKIE, I CANT STOP LAUGHING TILL NOW. Haha seriously, they are a great bunch of girlfriends :D I LOVE YOU GIRLS ;)

Yesterday I had a great chat with BFF! From night till 4am in the morning k! Okay I dont know what to update about already, nothing special today only having fun laughing at Frankie. HAHAHAHA.

2008-06-27T16:02:00.002+08:00

Im so motherfuckingly bored now. Since the time I woke up I din talk to anyone. I did nothing but watch tv, & when my sister came home crying I get my ass out of her room. Dont bother to know & dont bother to comfort her stupid reasons for crying. My brother has been such a pain in the arse. He ask me a stupid question & kept repeating it for like more then 10times? He automatically keep quiet when I look at him frustratedly. For a moment life at home sucks, seriously my father is going KL tomorrow & I dont know why my mother is feeling all stress up. Abeh lepas kan geram kat aku! Siang2 da warning 'SAT & SUN YOU CANT GO OUT, TAKE CARE OF YOUR SISTER'. I know for now shes feeling all angry, so no use of talking back to her. What I know, I have to go out tmrw & sun ;)

2008-06-26T23:53:00.000+08:00

Our floorball match against VJC, we lose. 5-3 if im not wrong. BUT uhuh, 2 of the girls is so hotttttttttt! Tak bole tahan gitu kan. HAHA. & we kept going to the toilet because one of them is in there, & ALL of us (yang senget2 la) have a conversation with her. Kononnye hotstuff uh die. HAHA. Ohh my. Next week Floorball match against Singapore Poly. Woooooooo! K I penat, bye.

2008-06-26T15:08:00.002+08:00

No other words can describe her but shes really CUTE! Fucking cute k.

I have floorball match later at 6pm. MATCH MALAM2 TAU! Pressure sia aku. & I just got back from my Badminton training. I think I wanna quit badminton already, because 100% of them are Chinese & everytime they talk chinese they think I can understand uh? & my partner just quit so I'll be better off joining other clubs. BYE!

2008-06-25T23:05:00.003+08:00

This may be god damn random, but I just realise that I can get along pretty well with those Sagittarius people. &&& someone really has the similar attitude as me. I went bloghopping, I laugh to myself & really this kid has follow my footsteps. Haha go on girl ;)

2008-06-25T22:33:00.006+08:00

RESULTS IS OUT

Digital Photography - B
Video Production 1 - D

GPA - 2.000

3D TKDE LANGSUNG. RABAK KAN. Nevermind I shall & I will study hard when school reopens. I will proof to you people that I still can be one of the top student okay. & I will proof those people wrong that Im not lazy to attend class. Insyallah bole bangun pagi. HAA!

Anyway, I went to meet Lala & Mary today. Slack at Mary's crib & spend the day watching L Word. Although it was only awhile but we had a great time. ;) Sorry I went home early, I really need to rest tho ((:

LEPAS SATU, SATU SIA PERANGAI. Wtf sial.

IM DATING SYAZWANI SOON, WHOSE NEXT? *kening naik naik*

2008-06-24T23:42:00.004+08:00

I was browsing thru my pictures & I saw this one. MY MUSCLES SO BUROK OKAYYY WHEN I TAKE PICTURES LIKE THIS. -.-"

I have floorball training earlier & it was fun -.- It was nice seeing them after for a long time of not meeting. I think I have a crush on Nur _____. HAHA. Dayana & Fan knows who. She has been smiling & smiling & smiling to me the whole day which makes me happy & its a good thing tho :D Teehee^^ I will be seeing you this Thursday again! *kening naik naik* We'll be having a friendly match against I dont know who. But I hope not Victoria JC again. I want poly/ite. I expect more malay girls. HAHA k diam.

I think I like orange...I suddenly find the colour is attractive. random -.-

2008-06-23T23:25:00.019+08:00

SO HOW DOES IT FEELS AFTER ALL THAT IVE SAID? HURTING RIGHT? SERVES YOU. -.- I DONT WANNA MAKE IT TO A BIG FUSS/DEAL. BUT IF YOU WANNA BE MY FRIEND THEN ACCEPT THE WAY I AM. IM TELLING THIS TO EVERYONE. IF YOU WANT ME TO CHANGE SO MUCH, I WILL K! I WILL ONCE I COME TO MY SENSES. i still love guys tho so no worries only that i love girls more. Friends come on, lets dont get all stressed up because of a _____. fill in the blanks.
I say to Mel 'WIND BLOW NIHH ONCE IN A LIFETIME! CEPAT AMIKKK!'
Lala say to Me 'KAU KAT RUMAH PUN BOLE PKI KIPAS JEK!'
I say to Lala 'NI NATURAL WIND! K CEPAT AMIKKKKK!!'
hahahaha kecoh k.
BFF! & My favourite shot of hers, taken by me (: Taken by Lala.My oh-so-wonderful girlfriends. Taken by Lala. Mel & Mary.

Kite sehati sejiwe la.Okay anyway, I went out with Lala & Mary today. We fetch Mary from her attachment at SGH & went over to her place and had lunch + dinner at Bugis. Went to Esplanade, photo-taking time & headed home. However, I really had a great time with my 2 wonderful girlfriends who never fail to make me laugh everyday (: Yes everyday. Thanks bffs!

2008-06-19T20:29:00.010+08:00

Imm (:

I love Immm ((: Nina (: I like this one (:
Fafa (: Has (: I dont know la why i smile like that. HAHA bacin k muke.Ferris Wheel (:First Day; The only interesting thing was we ride the ferris wheel at KL! Oh my i was so jakun. Well actually I cant really remember what we did on the first day. I can say that first day was boring, because we were trying to get to know each other very well. So yeahh. THEY MAKE ME POST THIS! -.- Whoever u think those 2 is, no they are not.
Haha look at my eyes & lips. Tengah high la sangatttt.
Second Day; We had lunch at this chinese restaurant, makes me wonder Malaysia has tons of malay restaurants & of all the restaurants they chose the chinese one. THE FOOD FUCKING SICK LA SIA. Almost half of the soccer players were sick & some of them cant even play for the later game. Before the game, took laughing gas & ohhh my I was so sick. When I was high I went in my hotel room and smell cigarettes, nina & yati smoke inside the room, & eeeeehhhh makes me sick! & uhuh I vomitted. Before the game k! I thought of staying but theres no way I will miss this game. Eventually we lost, 4-1. Everyone was so sick due to the food. -.- At that time I fucking swear I dont wanna take laughing gas anymore because in my whole life ive never vomitted before BUT later on at night..

Went Ptealing street, I wonder why malaysia guys tease girls like they have never saw girls before. FUCKING ANNOYING OKAY. I was fucking pissed off with the mat kental jubo there till I kept quiet & was all angry to myself. Pfft. But we went in this shop & dance! Everyone were eyeing & clap for us! Gerekkk la sangat! We bought drinks. Looking at everyone taking laughing gas is so tempting. So I took it again starting with, BISMILLAH! Haha. I had all types of Vodka, Heineken + Laughing Gas all night. With all the girls around me feeling so damn fuckingly wasted & high. Anddddd, things happen -.- That was hella night k.

Third Day; Those who drank cant even wake up & thanks to Ace doing her job waking people up by farting at our faces, I WAS ONE OF THEM THO. Went for a little shopping at err I dont know where. I forget laaaa, haiyo. We were at this shopping mall & trying to figure out where is Time Square. It was raining & all 11 of us ran in the rain together, tapi fun! Has asik jatuh jek, FUN KETAWEKAN DIE. Haha. & theres like a game/funfair corner inside the mall, with roller coaster! SEMUA JAKUN K. Money wasted at arcade games but funnnn (: Headed for our second match. It was raining & the field was ewwwww! This time againts the FUCKINGLY HOT caucasian girls :D :D At this time I have to defend this girl, I look back at her twice okayyy! Tak le concentrate sia main bola. Haha. All of us were drooling over this Number 9 girl. Everyone find a topic to talk to her at the toilet! She is soooo hot la k. Later on at night...

Went to petaling again, this time I was really tired + sleepy when its only 10pm. They went round searching for I dont know what!! We get scared with the drunkards who followed us half way. -.- pfft. I get all hyper after drinking Latte. Bought drinks again, & this time round it was not that happening BUT I had 5bottles of lychee & pink vodka and Carlsberg. I was way fucking drunk. We kept going to level 4 to see Dawn, Imm & Wati. & the netball teacher in charge know we were drunk, & she din allow us to come back again. So Soffi, Yati, Ace & Me took the staircase instead. I ended up lying infront of thier room, Dawn were trying to wake me & yati up. HAH! Thennn I dont know what happen, the next morning I wake up I was sleeping beside Nina.

Muke satu2 classic -.-

Fourth Day; Pack up things & headed to have lunch at A&W. Since theres no A&W at Singapore everyone(Soccer, Netball, Volleyball, Basketball guys/girls) went to have lunch there. & I dont find any special good taste in it that make all of them kept wanting to eat A&W. -.- Last moment spend with the girls in the bus was a memorable one. Kept singing songs with the wrong lyrics(ONLY ME AH). Making the bus alive with our nonsence. Reach Singapore at 5pm. Photo taking in school & headed home. Somehow I felt bad that I din buy anything for anyone. Not even my family. Im a bit scared if I buy & they dont like the gift end up I see it everywhere in my house, WASTE MONEY JEK! Same goes to my friends. Sorry, I think theres nothing incommon in Malaysia to buy for u guys/girls. But I spend all RM300 on things for myself. HEEEE (:

I wish the trip was a bit more longer, 4 days? Oh my thats a short time of period spending time with friends. Soccermates <3

I MISS LALA, I MISS MARY, I MISS FRANKIE, I MISS TINI, I MISS LIN, I MISS EVERYONE :D

2008-06-15T22:31:00.002+08:00

& finally, today I really had fun. Because I met my two lovely girlfriends, Mary & Lala :D I can never stop laughing with them tho (: Esp see Lala wear baju kurung. HAHAHA! Had lunch with Mary at TMK & headed to tamp.

Met Has & Nana there. More kecoh, more laughing, MORE WATCHING GIRLS :D Bestttt! My favourite part was eyeing on girls only. HAHA. No I was kidding. I really had fun with them, we entertain each others crap & I oh so love them :D If Lala were to join it would be better! Die lagi bole layan merepek aku. *SMILES WIDELY*

Anyway, Im going off to KL tomorrow morning at 7am. I will be back on thursday night, I hope. I WILL CONFIRM MISS LALA & MARY MOREEE THEN YOU OTHER PEOPLE. Hehe. No la, I will miss everyone okay (: Okay best, bye.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO IDA! I MISS YOU & I LOVE YOU MOREEEE :D

2008-06-14T21:22:00.004+08:00

I just notice this picture at my handphone. HA HA.
Movie marathon at Nina's place today. I dont know why, but this few days its really really bored. Can someone make an effort to at least make me laugh or laugh along with me? Uh huhhh -.- Now I cannot wait to go KL.

I miss Mary & Lala, badly :(

& HAPPY 8TH MONTH TO ME, HAPPY 3RD MONTH ANNI TO MY LESBIANS GIRLFRIENDS (:

2008-06-13T23:41:00.004+08:00

Motherfuckingly bored!
I bloody feel god damn dead today!
Ive always felt 13 is an unlucky number & yes it is -.-
OMG! MAR GO GET A LIFE SIAAAAAAA!

fyi, now the whole family knows about akmal. I talk to him just now tho (: Mitchell wants a long distance relationship with me, but I told him im gonna think about it first because I just cant turn back to straight just like that, right? He knows I love girls more tho -.-

I cant wait for Monday! Im going KL with the soccermates (:

2008-06-12T23:53:00.001+08:00

We have soccer match just now. Ite Simei Vs Siglap Sec. We won by 2-1. & ohhh to that girl, im really sorry I injured you. I accidentally attack this girl & her hands/fingers were fractured. Omg, I feel so bad & Im so scared for her. I was actually worried for her okay when the ambulance came, eventho I dont even know her -.- I was more to scared then worried ahh actually. I still can stand there & look at her when shes lying down crying okay! I panic ready I dont know what to do. Haha I so kental sia. & after awhile, some people just realize I look like Frankie -.- HAHA :D

Anyway, it was nice talking to Has the whole day today. I spend my day with her, & at night with my guys secondary classmates! Oh my I miss them so much. I was looking for AKMAL actually, but theres conflict between them. Ahhhh how sad /:

Tagged by Hartini. Thanks ah, aku da malas nk buat bende2 gini. Tapi tkpe skali skale.

Q: If your lover betrayed you, what would be your reaction?
A: Im gonna make him/her live in hell (:

Q: If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
A: I wanna be rich, I want the sweetest/perfect girlfriend ever & lastly more wishes!

Q: Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
A: Yeahh sometimes I do, i feel stupid when I think about it.

Q: Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
A: Yes.

Q: Would you change yourself for the person you love?
A: For the better, why not right?

Q: Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
A: Both.

Q: How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
A: As long as I can.

Q: If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
A: I'd rather be friends with him/her.

Q: Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
A: Yes! My annoying sister, can you please stop being a bitch for a day/forever?

Q: Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
A: YESSS! Sometimes, when it comes to....

Q: Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
A: YES! Fuckingly yes.

Q: Who are currently most important people to you?
A: My friends & family.

Q: Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
A: Yeah, but ended up different things happen.

Q: Whats the ideal perfect relationship to you?
A: Theres so much to say out about this, but at least just be honest if not it wont be called the ideal perfect relationship right? (:

Q: Are you happy with your life?
A: Not really for now.

Q: Would you give all in a relationship?
A: Yes, only if I think he/she deserves it.

Q: If you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick?the lousiest one?OR the better one?
A: The better one of coz, stupid question -.-

Q: What type of friends do you like?
A: All type, wouldn't it be boring if its only one type? HA HA -.-

Q: Do you often wish there was something you could change?
A: Yes! Alot of things, even change people mindset, can?

Q: What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
A: A guy? I dont know, but if its a girl. Then I will notice her perfume smell. HAHA REALLY LA SIA.

6 people I tagged :
Sery (",)
Lala Bff =)
Qimm Sweetheart :p
FRANKIE (:
Has ;)
ATIKA :D

2008-06-09T19:08:00.009+08:00

My fringe always cover my left eye, I have a thought of cutting my hair. Should i?
The reason why I hate my fringe -_________-When boredom strikes, *look at the pictures above*

Actually I have no idea what to update about, 'cause my day was totally boring. Suppose to go out with the little cousins for a swim, but I myself know that I wont be enjoying there. Furthermore I dont fancy family gatherings. BORING. I slept, close to 4am yesterday, chatted with Frankie, Lala & Qim. And im so sleepy now.

I hope tomorrow will be a different day from other days (:

Happy 18th Birthday to my deary bestest boyfriend, Mitchell. I know your celebration was boring without Kiki, but if I were there with you I would totally be celebrating with you baby. May you are bless with a good life ahead honey. I love you & I miss you heaps! Come to Singapore quickkkk! :D

2008-06-08T22:49:00.002+08:00

Sundays are officially boring. Actually Im going out with Fareesh today but he ah! Nevermind, next time okay? But after awhile, I headed to BRP. & sat there alone! My mum & sis went home. Met Nina for awhile, & we talk and talk and ohh my I miss her so much. But only for awhile, she went home & I went to meet Sha. We went to BRP back, sit the talk! I so adore her GF la k, shes a cacausian girl but she can talk malay fluently! Seriously, she dont even sound like a Caucasian girl. Anyway, Sha confess to me that she use to like me & she even create a nickname for me la k. MARY JOE YA YA ! Haha lol eh sha lol! & I called her Maroon coz she always wear Maroon school uniform. Random, I know.

Im confuse, very much confuse. Okay anyway, I wanna movie marathon but I need someone to join me, now who cares to join me? HAHA. Random k random. K bye.

2008-06-07T21:45:00.002+08:00

I love today because its the 7th June, & according to my islamic birthday its today (:
I spend my Saturday with the 2 favourite girlfriends, Mary & Lala (: Too bad Nina cant join us. I miss you, you know bacin. So we went to Lala's crib all the way to Chua Chu Kang. Punyer la jauh. We movie marathon & I fell asleep half way. The two of them, dont know eh do what. HAHAHA. & we watch movie together, I was so blur after I woke up mcm high gile. Abeh Lala pun same. Bacin. I went off ard 7 plus. While Mary stay with Lala. Anyway I have fun with you girls just now, thanks ah eh Mary laugh at what im wearing & thanks to Lala for giving me that shirt. Arha. & oh btw early in the morning I saw Syazwani, my ex schoolmate &...! Omg, I really miss her & I saw her just now. Still maintain, still pretty as always (:

looking back twice =)

2008-06-06T22:32:00.002+08:00

I change my url due to something. I think my blog has already been expose to many people already. So to those who know, just shut the fuck up. Tkder, yg gereknye blog aku sorg jek nih yang kene. Gerek ah, aku enjoying sia. & I get irritated with my entry without any pictures. & TAKE NOTE; I CHANGE MY HANDPHONE NUMBER, YES LINE 2 YEARS PLAN SUDAH HABIS!

Today was my last paper for my exams. & just so you know, I drop out my 3d subject. I think I have to retake it next year or the following year. I went Soccer & slack with Lala and Mary. We really had fun laughing our ass out sampai tertelan air batu eh. Out of so many things to talk about, we talk about animals just now. Since Mitchell wanna talk to me on the phone, I have to call him & leave the two lovebirds alone. I just bought a new number & I top up 128bucks. & 28bucks is for international calls. So I spend that on Mitchell, calling him all the way to Australia. It was nice talking to you tho, you know you're partly one of them who makes my day today (: I miss you heaps, come down to Singapore soon okay pretty boy, haha! (:

So many things has been going on this days, this past few days, past few weeks, past few months. Pressure pressure pressure. School life, Love life, Home life, everything. Its getting sick & its SICKER. From bad to worst. I dont know, its just sucks the way it is now. I know shit happens in life, I fuckingly believe that & I have to endure everything all by myself. Now everything is on me, me me ME! Do you know how sucks it is to be me? No of coz you dont, because you can never understand it.

2008-06-03T16:59:00.009+08:00

I was sitting at my voideck writing my little diary & studying, & went I when down the stairs, theres this 2 gorgeous girls sitting at my voideck (uhuh i was very slack okay!). One of them whisper something to her friend & they were like looking at me all the way till I went to the opposite side. They even turn thier sits position la okay just to look at me! Like you guys know, Im scared when someone stare at me right. Furthermore I was alone okay! As I was updating my little diary, both of them walk towards me, still staring at me, I stare back ah! & one of them just stop infront of me & stare and uhhh she smile la siaaaa! Gahhhhh, omg la! I think shes a lesbian. HAHA! Because you can actually know the way senget people smile & straight people smile okay. & thier reaction etc. Ahhh only lesbian know la k shut up. I was hoping them to come back tho, but I dont know where did they go. Im still at my voideck nihh looking for only one of them. HAHA! Perangai sials sia. Okay maybe I should sit at my voideck more often frm today onwards. HEEEE :D

I FUCKINGLY MISS HARTINI & FARLINI SO MUCH SIAAAA. IDK WHY AH, BUT I MISS YOU GIRLS BADLY ):

2008-05-31T23:59:00.002+08:00

Lala, my BFF! Invited me to play for her team soccer match today at Safra Tamp. & we receive thia Adidas shirt, I was expecting more of those adidas stuffs but err a shirt will do. Haha. Anyway our team was in the second place overall & we make it to the semi-finals but din make it to the finals. Ohh, I get hit by this caucasian girl, she fucking hit me at my heart+breast+stomach okay! For a moment I cant breathe siaaa. First time oi kene injured gitu. Pressure skejab. Anyway LALA, thanks for asking me to play I really had fun tho. Heeee (:

Mary came, & the three of us headed to tamp to have lunch. Waited for Nina & we walk around tamp then headed to Mary's crib. Lala & I was half dead oi, we can sleep anywhere seh. True BFF? Haha. Ohh well, I always have fun with the three of them, Nina baby, Mary; my twin sister, Lala; my BFF! I was so sleepy but I fell asleep at 9pm! Pathetic kan, abeh dua2 Mary plak tuhh tido. Haha.

ps; i love you ever ever dearly baby! :) -my special gf ;p

2008-05-29T23:58:00.000+08:00

I think, this is the strongest picture for my Coffee Table Book.

This is random, I din plan to take this shot, but surprisingly the background makes people go WOW looking at it. So I decided to take it instead. Lovebirds -.-

I think I can edit better then this, but yesterday my brain was not functioning. A panaroma picture.

One of my favourite ones! Silhoutte, I love this kind of picture so I tend to snap a few of it.

Studio photoshoot.

I want people to go WOW looking at the shots that Ive taken. At least one of it, & I just did. Not 1, not 2 but 3! Anyway, those were a few shots taken by me. & will be for my Coffee Table Book assignment.

Today, the whole day were spend at bugis. Tini came over to my house & get done with my CTB. Thanks tini for your help, If you din help me I think I will be struggling with the penknife siol. & thanks Fina for handling with the Aunty attitude, fucking racist. Thanks Farlini for being sarcastic (HAHA!). Everything ended at 11pm, my dad send her home & I bet now shes still doing her CTB ;)

My class was cancelled today so I dont need to go to school. A little message for NINA, how busy I am today I still remember that I miss you (: One whole day eh, gahhhh!

2008-05-28T23:21:00.010+08:00

See that guy over there, he gets all excited when I say I wanna take some pictures of him & his friends.I cant stop taking his pictures tau. Haha.

& he reminds me of Mitchell (:See, tryna show off to me. HAHA. This kid, his really good.

I bet everyone in DAVP is pressuring with the Coffee Table Book now. Tu la smua buat last minute lagi, lagi2 aku. 3d lagi blm buat, lagi best!

Anyway, I went to Orchard early in the morning with Fina. & when skate park saw those caucasian hot kids. Da besar tuh confirm smua handsome siaaa! I make new friends, & they are very cute. Especially the little kid learning how to play the skateboard, OMG he is so cute okay. When I went off everyone said bye & Im gonna miss them showing off thier special tricks to me. Haha cute oi. (: Met tini, & she became my model for awhile. Thanks eh makcik (:

Today's phase test, I get 1 mark for white balance but the rest was fine, 3 and/or full marks. My photoshop was power la kan, I end it in just a few mins & mostly full marks. But I dont think my pictures taken were that amazing cause taking objects is so not my thing. Furthermore, I dont even have the mood to snap here & there. I took my own sweet time, we were given 1hr 30mins, so mind you.

& its coming to the end of may already. Time flies, so damn bloody fast -.- Well actually in my family regulations, my dad only celebrate birthdays that are followed by islamic orders. Like me, according to the Islam dont know what, my birthday is on 7 June. 7 oi! Favourite number lagi, so im looking forward to it eventho I celebrate it with my family only. At least dpt duit tau.(HAHA) My family all alim2 laaa they follow all this stuffs, tapi anak die otak senget. Pressure sia.

& baby, I miss you badly. If can kan I wanna meet u right now, but too bad cannot. Tomorrow never see you lagi, haiyooo thanks to my big mouth ah eh. Haha. -p.s i will always love you (:

2008-05-26T23:07:00.004+08:00

I like this one. psst; nina has fat fingers(: & nina my 290 ring is with youuu! Tsk! :D
& this one too (:

I was suppose to go photoshoot with Ashish, but instead I spend my time with Nina baby & Mary & Lala (: The day was spend most of the time sleeping. Nina & I tidur tak ingat dunia. Since im at Mary's place I thought of asking them to be my model but I told you we sleep the whole day! Accompany Nina to the polyclinic & omg I swear and Im telling you, never ever go to polyclinics sia. We waited for nearly 1 hour just to get her MC & medicine. Goddd! Anyway, thanks ah korg ajak aku tidur jek sampai photoshoot aku pun tak terbuat. Haha. Padahal I yang wanto sleep eh. But im still sleepy sia now -.- - p/s; i love you (:

My body has been very lazy, my eyes are too heavy to be wide open. Im tired, I need one whole day of sleeping, can? I ate Chicken rice for my lunch, & dinner my dad bought Chicken rice again! pffft -.- I only eat food that is not cook from my mum only when my mum says its nice. Other then that no never. Still, I hate Coffee shops! Heh.

Alahhh mentel siaa.

Those were some pictures taken yesterday. I told you my weekends were awesome. Only some incidents that should not have happen had happen. -___________-

2008-05-25T23:23:00.006+08:00

ILYSIAN (:
My weekends were awesome (: Yesterday night was awesome, last part of the day was a WRAP! & we did the credits our own way & I bet everyone who watch it will laugh at us looking how stupid we were. Anyway, thanks to all the actress/actor for becoming my cast! Really, much appreciated. & to those who back out last minute also, thanks ah! Thanks alot eh!

2008-05-24T01:07:00.000+08:00

Currently, its 00:25am. Anyway, yesterday I participate in 4 x 100 for my school so called sports day, I have a feeling my team will be the last one cause you see Yati, Tini & Myself we are long distance runner. But overall we was in the 4th position. Not that bad afterall okay (: & also participate in 4 by 4. I really have confidence we're gonna win in that event & yes we did, we won second! I was the last runner, & when people were cheering & shouting my name, feeling2 skejab ah lari. :D

After that, had shooting for my short film. I was the Director, & all I could think was to finish this as quickly as I can & be prepared to get scoldings from that bitch & Mr Nick cause we lost our Boompole(someone called it microphone! :x ) Anyway, yahhh! We lost it. But wateva, I hope everything will be done by tomorrow. Im not done with my photography assignment lagi! Pressure siaaaaa! I have to skip class on Monday no matter what -.- I HAVENT EVEN START MY 3D. Tuh lagi 10 times pressure sia. Ape salahnye skali skale tak hantar assignment kan? Heeeeee!

I felt like today Ive chat with the wonderful human beings when my situation was in a stressful mode but they kinda make my day actually :) & the 3 girls were my Iza Baby, Nina Sayang & Anna Maria Honey. I miss Anna badly, you see European time & Singapore time is way different & the online time is always different. So it will be kinda hard for us to catch up things, wateva I still love her & miss her alot (: Click here. check out her video eastpak, the one wearing make up is her. I was HAHAHAHAHA again just now, hell fun (: - bacin/bongok, sayang ^^